Saturday, December 29, 2012
It's all how you look at things.
It is so easy to look only with what our eyes can see, and become alarmed, discouraged, and worried. Which is why I daily need to go to the Word of God and get a more heavenly perspective of things. " Heaven and earth will pass away " (Matt. 24:35) - and mankind has a lot to do with its destruction, through mega-oil companies' greed and mega-farms' uniform crops, and generally self-centered, selfish, irresponsible dominion and poor stewardship of God's lovely creation - "but [God's] word will never pass away."
So, things may not be going as I had hoped or planned with Levi. He is facing problems with his younger daughter's mother, making false accusations against him (could she be trying to sue him for "damages" so she can live easy?) I wonder if this will have an affect on his immigration process - which STILL has not begun as we wait on the finalization of the divorce. Levi told me he was telling the lawyer, "Here you have a simple case, where the ex-wife has signed the document, is not asking for anything, is happy to let things go -" (bear in mind they have been apart for more than 20 years) -"and you are making the process longer than Peru's National Anthem!" (It's a LONG one!) "What would you do with a more complex case???"
So, as we wait, I think, Lord, even if we never manage to come together - I am grateful for having had this HOPE, having his friendship and encouragement, for sharing dreams and visions of a work we can share in. Grateful for at least a taste of a new love after my first husband's passing. Grateful for knowing and coming to love Levi's extended family.
And I think back to Joseph - enslaved to potiphar, and then put in jail due to false accusations. HE had dreams and visions...I am sure he wondered about them. His faith must have been sorely tried, and he must have faced the temptation to be embittered against his jealous brothers. But we don't see that. No, he maintains his faith, his integrity, and a forgiving heart.
So, Lord, I don't know what all will come of dreams I've had, prophetic words received - I pray for their fulfillment, and above all that YOUR kingdom comes, YOUR will is done, that YOU would be honored and glorified come what may. After all, my life is not my own - it's YOURS. And I am grateful for Your daily presence, for Your love, grace, mercy, forgiveness - I have already been SO blessed, I can not complain. So - here I am. Be it unto me according to YOUR word. I choose a heavenly perspective.