If it were a real blog, I wouldn't be starting it at 11:52 PM, and attempting to see, when I hit Post after midnight, if it posts as a 12/28 entry, or a 12/29 entry. Granted, if it's the latter, it'll also extend my streak to 21 days in a row scribbling out a blog post, a streak I'm glad to have done (assuming it does post to the 29th), but also one that's become a bit of a burden, in that I feel like I really oughta keep going, but sometimes don't really feel like extending, and then when I do decide to scribble, feel like I really oughta type out something worthwhile, rather than just bashing out something piddling for the purpose of streaking along. To credit myself, none of these posts were one liners. But as mentioned/pondered way back in the days when I lived 400 miles away, some items do feel forced, or rather (completely?) uninspired, and I fear that this is one such missive.
So, I think that if I don't really have anything to say, I won't. Maybe blurt a thought onto the community journal thingy I mentioned the other day. Maybe not even stick my head into this site, if I really don't feel like it (although, I think I'm about a week away from breaking my old record streak of at least spinning the wheel). We are all adults here, after all (actually, I don't know that...are there any kids around? I'm sure there are teens who could use the wisdom this site provide, even if they ought not to be obsessing on matters of weight quite yet).
To cop a phrase from some guy named Bill, "To spark or not to spark, is that the question?" But I guess if I put it that way, the answer's a rather unequivocal Yes. So I guess I'll keep on bothering. Just with an option to slack. If I feel like it?
Since I still have a minute or two to kill, I'll prattle on thusly: I'm not really sure what brought about this moment of reflection on the website and how I use it, and what I get from it. I've mentioned, a long time ago, about how I am with certain websites, using them regularly for a time, even a long time, and then suddenly finding myself not caring. I'm not at that point with this site. If anything, judging only by sparkpoint numbers, my usage and interaction with sparkpeople have increased over the past few months. Hoping that results follow early on in the new year. But I am also curious if that point comes, and I suddenly grow annoyed, or worse, bored by SP, whether it'll be accompanied by an abandonment of the things I learned by perusing its pages and participating with its people. It seems like there are a lot of boomerangs amongst our numbers, people who join up, initially succeed in losing weight, then go away from the site, only to come back to it, almost apologetic, professing to have slipped back into old habits, and regained what was lost (in terms of weight/good habits).
Are we doomed to such fates, if we drift awry? Will spirits visit us at some point in a dreary future, reminding us of what might have been? (In case you were wondering, yes, I've begun reading Dickens' "A Christmas Carol", available free at www.literature.org/autho
, a very nice website that I just discovered a couple of days ago. I'll certainly be haunting that site extensively, as it contains a decent spread of classic books, for free reading. I think "The Count of Monte Cristo" might be next once I polish off Ebenezer's adventures).
Hey, maybe a fear of something like that occurring might just keep me poling my head around here for a long time to come. Maybe, when I do finally manage to get a flipping job, that might prove detrimental to the health, in terms of limiting time to exercise, even as it would help it in terms of reducing stress. I think, the more I blather on, the more I make the case for staying interested in this site on a long term basis. But for now, I hit post, and see if it registers when I started, or where I ended. I'm betting the 29th.
Edit: I win! the bet, I mean. And now for a cookie to celebrate.