You foiled my plans. Oh well. I'm putting that behind me and soildering on. Took a good long walk with my son this afternoon. Felt good and strong once I was done. It oddly made me feel more motivated about everything else and was able to do some dreary chores I didn't really want to do.

I gave my husband 30 days to make a real effort in improving our relationship and financial situation. During this month i am focusing on myself. I have done so much in our partnership it really is time for me to take care of myself for once. During this month i want to make a very real and concentrated effort in improving my weight and health. I need to keep the motivation up, it's essential to progress. We'll see. I'm ready to be brave in 30 days if I must. i have given him too many chances to take the easy way out, and I can't do that anymore. I'm prepared to have to be a single mother, and if things were to continue in the same way they are now, I think I will be better off that way. I love him, but I can't take anymore emotional abuse, lying, cheating and laziness.

30 days is about to make or break me!