Saturday, December 29, 2012
Wow, I hadn't realized how much I was dreading the holidays. I was sure I would fall off the wagon, indulge on holiday treats and totally backslide. Well, I did, and you know what? It isn't the end of the world!!! Did I gain a couple of pounds? Yes. Did I drop them again once I got back on track and increased my exercise and activity level? YES!
Since starting with Spark this was truly my first real challenge. I am a Christmas addict. I love all the activities, candies, cookies, dinners, going out, being with friends, all the things that usually sink a healthy eating plan. So this year I decided that rather than beat myself up about what I ate, I tried just forgiving myself ahead of time. I know myself well enough to understand that I would eat bad stuff at my staff breakfast, that I would eat out more often than I usually do and that I would have at least some of all the wonderful but unhealthy dishes my family puts on the table at our holiday meals. What this did for me was remarkable. I allowed myself to enjoy the holidays. It seemed that by being gentle on myself at the very beginning I was able to be more in control overall. It's weird and I'm not sure why but by giving myself permission to eat I actually gave myself the power NOT to eat. Funny but true, I felt more in control this year than ever. I did overeat, no doubt about it but when I did I didn't feel like a loser or a failure. I saw it for exactly what it was, a temporary side step. I knew that I would get back on track and that I'd be able to get rid of any extra pounds.
I am thankful for Sparkpeople, I believe the habits I have formed over the past 6 months have taken hold. There were a couple of days that I didn't log on and didn't track my food but for the most part I kept to my tracking, even when the calories were astoundingly high. On those days I just shrugged my shoulders and vowed to walk an extra mile the next day or do extra time on the treadmill. I didn't berate myself or feel bad. I think that is the key. So many times I read posts from folks who feel totally defeated when they eat too much or gain some weight. We need to forgive ourselves for these lapses and just get back on track as soon as we can. I try to be happy about my fitness level as it is now but always look forward to the next goal. Be satisfied with myself instead of always wanting to be different. I am who I am, I'm not going to change my fundamental self and so I will always overeat during Christmas time, it's just how I am. But now, I also know that I am also the person that will get back on track and continue on my fitness journey despite any side tracks that I encounter. That's the true change in how I view my fitness and weight, I may falter but I won't fail and that's why I know I'm on the right track!