2012 is on its way out and 2013 is creeping in. At times I feel l have lost all hope that it is even possible for me to lose weight. I have tried so many times this year and failed. I feel as thought my mind will explode with the plethora of "diet" information that is in my brain. I've tried so many things I don't even know where to begin. I've read this and heard that and seen eat this and don't eat that. I'm confused. I've been doing this since I was 10... One would think after 25 years that I would have something positive to show for my efforts, but I don't. I'm definitely at some sort of warped crossroad. I need to make a choice. Lose weight or move on with a life of being obese.Basically I need to put up, or shut up. I've spent a quarter of a century trying to lose weight and I don't want to spend another 25 years doing the same thing. I'm trying to get my head around the amount of weight I need to lose, because lets face it....its 100+ pounds.It's going to take a miracle. Seriously, I need a miracle. The spark in me has been snuffed out.