Friday, December 28, 2012
I have been absent from Spark for a long while now, life happened. I am working several jobs and trying to live a life I am happy with.
For the most part this is true, however my health, weight and the like are still the root of all my problems.
I am still morbidly obese, I have maintained my 2 stone loss - but I have yet to lose anymore.
I am wondering why I haven't ever been able to achieve my goals to be a healthy weight.
I try and then I burn out and I go back to everything I used to do.
I don't work hard enough, I talk myself out of almost every gym attempt, eventually I give in although I never quite give up.
I have decided to look into Cognitive Behavioural Therapy for to discuss my reasons for eating the way I do, and if I can learn some coping mechanisms so I don't go to the fridge when I feel bored or sad, lonely etc
I am also going to look at ways of exercising that don't involve a gym membership that will pretty much squash any self esteem I have.
I want to be healthy, I am tired of feeling abnormal, disgusting etc
I just want to lead a normal life, without these extra complications.
Has anyone sought help for binge eating? or had CBT?
I would appreciate any advice you have! I have been with spark for a good 3 years now and have had very limited success in terms of actual weight loss.
Hope you have all enjoyed a wonderful christmas and that 2013 looks bright for you all!