Friday, December 28, 2012
So I just realized that I never really accomplish any of my goals. I set out with dogged determination, and at some point get bored, and just drop it. Literally. I dropped two long term relationships, dropped out of University (although I did go back 8 years ago and completed a 2 year diploma course), I dropped out when I became close to acheiving my goal of becoming a supervisor, AND I dropped out each time I felt I was making healthy choices and headway in the losing weight battle.
I have nothing but excuses, lame at best, and I NEED TO BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE! Yes, even adults have to face the consequences of their choices.
I bare my soul here and ask for guidance and support from anyone that cares to offer it. I will greatly accept any and all advice! I may not follow it, but will give open consideration to all!
I have ended the relationship ferriswheel finally, as I did some personal growth excercises and am now in a much better place than I ever hoped to be emotionally. Having the love and support of a wonderful man helps!
Now to tackle this weight loss goal. I actually took the time to go to a Personal Trainer, did the whole planning and setting goals with them, to no avail. I use my disease as an excuse for this one (I have a rare disease and it's not so much the disease as the medications that exhaust me) but I know whenever I'm active, I feel soooooo much better. So I am starting over, again. With a new goal in mind, I have the tools at my fingertips, and I WILL lose the weight this time.