Friday, December 28, 2012
Today is not going as planned. I had everything all set up for my step aerobics before I went to bed last night, and I had lights out at 10, but couldn't fall asleep.
Sleep was fitful because the ibuprofen wore off and OMG OWWWWWWWWWWWW. I'm feeling a bit better right now, but there will be no vigorous working out today. Maybe several short bursts of energy walks with the Punim.
So instead of working out today, I am spending extra time on Spark to keep motivated. Then I have a lot to read for the new job. Also, I'm trying to come up with small ways to cut back on spending for the next couple of weeks so I can just get the Fitbit Plus already. I mean, if I'm worried about the working out while getting used to my new schedule, I ought to have something to at least track my activity, right? (ENABLE ME PLEASE!)
On the employment front: I'm happy to report that my drug screening and FBI background checks came up clean. I had no reason to worry on either account, but I was still on edge about them. My HR recruiter called to welcome me aboard (again) and to give me the news, and then out came another one of those "make me weep" phrases.
"We're so excited to have you on board. You are the right fit for this job and this group."
Me? You're excited to have me? LOL. I never thought it possible.
Which is probably why I've sort of stalled out on the getting healthy campaign. If I'm not worth it, then why bother? After YEARS of hearing about how worthless I am from the former boss and certain long-since diseased members of my family, I am now JUST getting it. The encouragement I've gotten from my Spark friends and 10 months of working on myself, and this one comment is the one to push me out of the dark side.
I'm worth it. I'm worth the effort, I'm a valuable, and I deserve to look and feel awesome and live a very long and happy life.
SO there. I said it out loud. Positive thinking/vibrations opened my life up to getting this job. Now it will get me through the rest of the healing process. And I don't just mean my lady parts. I mean my overall health and well-being.
I'm going to go forth and make something awesome of this day.