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Can you see the lightbulb over my head?

Friday, December 28, 2012

Today is not going as planned. I had everything all set up for my step aerobics before I went to bed last night, and I had lights out at 10, but couldn't fall asleep.

Sleep was fitful because the ibuprofen wore off and OMG OWWWWWWWWWWWW. I'm feeling a bit better right now, but there will be no vigorous working out today. Maybe several short bursts of energy walks with the Punim.

So instead of working out today, I am spending extra time on Spark to keep motivated. Then I have a lot to read for the new job. Also, I'm trying to come up with small ways to cut back on spending for the next couple of weeks so I can just get the Fitbit Plus already. I mean, if I'm worried about the working out while getting used to my new schedule, I ought to have something to at least track my activity, right? (ENABLE ME PLEASE!)

On the employment front: I'm happy to report that my drug screening and FBI background checks came up clean. I had no reason to worry on either account, but I was still on edge about them. My HR recruiter called to welcome me aboard (again) and to give me the news, and then out came another one of those "make me weep" phrases.

"We're so excited to have you on board. You are the right fit for this job and this group."

Me? You're excited to have me? LOL. I never thought it possible.

Which is probably why I've sort of stalled out on the getting healthy campaign. If I'm not worth it, then why bother? After YEARS of hearing about how worthless I am from the former boss and certain long-since diseased members of my family, I am now JUST getting it. The encouragement I've gotten from my Spark friends and 10 months of working on myself, and this one comment is the one to push me out of the dark side.

I'm worth it. I'm worth the effort, I'm a valuable, and I deserve to look and feel awesome and live a very long and happy life.

SO there. I said it out loud. Positive thinking/vibrations opened my life up to getting this job. Now it will get me through the rest of the healing process. And I don't just mean my lady parts. I mean my overall health and well-being.

I'm going to go forth and make something awesome of this day.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
NILLAPEPSI 12/29/2012 4:17PM

    God doesn't make junk. You are not worthless. You are a blessing to me. I always enjoy your notes on my page. emoticon Yes, you are worth it. emoticon

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PRNCSCUP1-2FULL 12/28/2012 9:59PM

    You do that my friend! Hpe your day was awesome.... Just like you! You are worth that Fit Bit Plus too! Love the positive attitude!

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BEAUTY_WITHIN 12/28/2012 9:52PM

    I'm so excited for you! Keep it up! You'll do great at your new job. :) Hope you're feeling better!

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FUSIONFITNESS3 12/28/2012 4:11PM

    How exciting. Isn't it interesting how it can be so difficult to say "I am worth it." So happy you were able to type that note to yourself. Now keep rehearsing it and believe it every day of the new year.

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WARRIORGIRL121 12/28/2012 12:18PM

    Sweetie, you are wonderful and awesome! I'm happy that you are getting this realization. That company is blessed to have YOU joining them and I know you will do great! Make it a good day with the baby Punim and take a needed rest and just ENJOY. Love and hugs, Karen

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JJAQUES41 12/28/2012 11:59AM

    I'm so happy that you are sailing through the employment approval process AND hearing the affirmations that make us all feel better about ourselves. Somewhere deep down we THINK we know we're worth it, but it's so nice to hear someone else say it out loud. I think the fitbit is a great support gift to help keep you motivated!

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BIGPAWSUP 12/28/2012 10:57AM

    You are an awesome person! I'm so happy this is staring to dawn on you. Yes, they are lucky to have you because you are wonderful.

Enjoy the day with the pup! And feel GOOD about yourself.

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MUNCHNIT 12/28/2012 10:50AM


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