Thursday, December 27, 2012
I'm not strong, I fake being strong. This journey has shown me that when I am weak I need to ask for help. I NEED HELP! I want to learn and grow because what else is there. Beating myself up when I fail is not right. It makes me worse and effects my family. When I'm not positive it prolongs my misery. This is more than I can handle alone!
It seems like when I was younger it was easier to be motivated, to be passionate about things. I'm falling into a lazy, comfortable rut where all I want to do is dream about what I want, where I used to be....Complaining about where I'm not.
I want to be positive and motivated. I want to be that happy healthy person again. I have been through way to much to let being insecure ruin me. Being strong is what I want...and right now I'm not. Help!