Thursday, December 27, 2012
This past month has been a complete nightmare. I was doing so well on this journey and then life got really chaotic. Let's face the reality here Kristina, the last few months have been a nightmare.
I know many people in my life when they get stressed they turn to food and pig out. I'm the complete opposite. I get so overwhelmed I don't eat. Hence, the weight I've lost in the past few weeks. Lord knows its not from eating right or exercising. I can't even remember the last time I did a workout to be completely honest.
Insomnia is really taking a toll on me. I've literally got my days and nights backwards. I think finally last night everything hit me at once and I fell asleep before 10pm and was wide awake at 7am. Do I feel better? Eh, not really. I'm still worried about what's going to happen and then I finally made up my mind. We're going to try one more option and if it doesn't work then we're pulling out of the deal. I can't keep doing this to myself. I'm literally driving myself insane.
I've got a workout tracked in my tracker and I need to get it done. I'm not going to let this stress overtake my life anymore. No, I'm nowhere near I wanted to be fitness minutes wise this month but, oh well, such is life.
Life is going to have its ups, downs, twists, turns, and curve balls. I've got to face the fact that I'm not always going to get a workout in. Its not the end of the world. The important part is that I get up at some point and get one in, even if its only 20 minutes. A few minutes is better then nothing.
I'm hoping things will be worked out in a week or so. We have an overnight trip planned for New Years Eve. I need to get out of the house for a night and get my mind off of all this craziness.