This year marks a huge accomplishment for me.
I made it through Christmas without bingeing
for the first time in more than 10 years?
It's been so long I really can't remember.
It probably has been even longer, but the important part
is this year was different.

Yes, I did overeat. Yes, I did enjoy a large variety
of holiday treats, but No, I didn't binge myself
into the numbness of a food coma.

I have been recovering from bulimia for almost 6 months now.
I had one small relapse on December 1st. I was able to get back
on track quickly and I learned something very important.

1. Stay away from the scales. Weighing myself everyday puts
the focus on weight instead of recovery.

2. I don't have to be "perfect" I just need to do the best I can.
Recovery does not mean perfection, and an occasional relapse
is part of the process.

3. It's ok to enjoy my food, but I also need to enjoy my life.

The holidays weren't perfect, my eating wasn't perfect, even my attitude
wasn't perfect, because perfect isn't realistic. Knowing that was key
to getting through my first Christmas "binge-free."
I have ditched "Perfect" from my vocabulary and replaced it
with "Realistic" and it is making a difference in my recovery.

My SP friends have also made a HUGE difference.
I was ready to leave SP because I was finding some things very triggering,
but the encouragement I have found here outweighs the few snags
I encountered.

Wishing all my SP friends Peace and Love!
You are a blessing to me in my journey!
~Joy~
AKA Lilac