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My First Binge Free Christmas

Thursday, December 27, 2012

This year marks a huge accomplishment for me.
I made it through Christmas without bingeing
for the first time in more than 10 years?
It's been so long I really can't remember.
It probably has been even longer, but the important part
is this year was different.

Yes, I did overeat. Yes, I did enjoy a large variety
of holiday treats, but No, I didn't binge myself
into the numbness of a food coma.

I have been recovering from bulimia for almost 6 months now.
I had one small relapse on December 1st. I was able to get back
on track quickly and I learned something very important.

1. Stay away from the scales. Weighing myself everyday puts
the focus on weight instead of recovery.

2. I don't have to be "perfect" I just need to do the best I can.
Recovery does not mean perfection, and an occasional relapse
is part of the process.

3. It's ok to enjoy my food, but I also need to enjoy my life.

The holidays weren't perfect, my eating wasn't perfect, even my attitude
wasn't perfect, because perfect isn't realistic. Knowing that was key
to getting through my first Christmas "binge-free."
I have ditched "Perfect" from my vocabulary and replaced it
with "Realistic" and it is making a difference in my recovery.

My SP friends have also made a HUGE difference.
I was ready to leave SP because I was finding some things very triggering,
but the encouragement I have found here outweighs the few snags
I encountered.

Wishing all my SP friends Peace and Love!
You are a blessing to me in my journey!
AKA Lilac

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
CANDOSUE52 1/1/2013 12:13AM


Good job! You keep loving my friend!!

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CHANGING-TURTLE 12/30/2012 2:07PM


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A-NEW-TARA 12/30/2012 2:01PM

    I am so happy for you, Joy!! Thank you for this blog, as you know I've had a difficult couple weeks resulting in a binge on Christmas eve and I've had difficulty coming to terms with the relapse. I'm going to incorporate your strategies, especially the "perfect" stuff; I have to stop expecting myself to be perfect. Thank you for your courage, your strength and your honesty; you are more than inspirational, you are life affirming.

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DEDICATED2HIM 12/29/2012 7:25PM

    MERRY Christmas JOY!!!! This is wonderful news. No one is perfect and God does not ask any of us to be perfect. We can only do what we can do but if we do it with our whole heart and with a heart that longs to please him, He is satisfied. We need to learn to be satisiied tool

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IGOSSELS 12/29/2012 3:08PM

    You are a strong and powerful woman who inspires more people than you know. So pleased your strategies are working for you. emoticon

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YOU-GLOW-GIRL 12/28/2012 6:42PM

    Congratulations! That's a huge accomplishment! :)


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KPETSCHE 12/27/2012 11:55AM

Perfect isn't possible but realistic is! Great job!

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CHANGINGSAM 12/27/2012 11:55AM

    I am SO VERY proud of you! You are doing GREAT! emoticon

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OOLALA53 12/27/2012 11:40AM

    What a great place to be in the middle of the madness. emoticon

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1EMMA2011 12/27/2012 11:33AM

    So proud of you!! Yes to ditching that word perfect! Together we will overcome!


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_LINDA 12/27/2012 11:22AM

    Joy, that is great news! You have a winning attitude. No extremes, no worries just do the best you can! You are not a slave to the scale! Wonderful progress!
Keep up the great work!!
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BOBBIENORTHERN1 12/27/2012 11:14AM

  I know exactly what you are talking about. This is the first year of Thanksgiving and Christmas where I did not eat food like a drunken sailor.

I ate more then I usually do but not to the point of getting drunk on it.

I have also figured out what you did. This is not about being perfect. This is about getting to know ones self and what works best for our own self since each of us is so different and unique and special we have special and different ways of getting to our goals.

Taking this just one day at a time and if and when I do goof up I don't throw in the towel or throw out the baby with the bath water, I pick up again immediately and get right back on track and it is working for me.

Perfect we will never be, but doing as good as we can with each new day is very doable and a good way to live and experience life to the fullest.

Also when I use the food tracker it leads me to obsession over food and we are not meant to obsess over food.

I am learning to eat only when hungry which I am finding out is not too often and then eat till the hunger is gone which is showing me how little I need to eat and to eat to live and to fuel my body with nutrition dense food.

I feel much better in my physical body and am even losing weight doing this like this.

You are gaining much insight into how to life for yourself and to be healthy and balanced while doing it. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DEBBY4576 12/27/2012 11:07AM

    Was so happy to read your blog. You are doing so good. Enjoying life is a good thing to strive for. emoticon

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KELLIEBEAN 12/27/2012 11:04AM

    I have tears in my eyes. That is great progress!


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REFFIE1 12/27/2012 11:02AM

    Joy, I am so happy for you. It must be so freeing to be able to say you didn't binge over the Christmas holidays. I told you about my brush with candy cane ice cream - I could feel it triggering me to go on eating. I was surprised. I thought I was past all that. But then I wasn't surprised because you had bravely told us how you have to struggle with these eating issues on and off. That is the beauty of Sparkpeople. It not only gives us knowledge but we also know that we are not alone in our struggles, and daily ups and downs. I am proud of you for not bingeing, for replacing perfectionism with realism and for having the courage to disclose to us. You have let us help you, but you have helped us with your story and life experience. emoticon

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MELTEAGUE 12/27/2012 10:46AM

    Wonderful! way to go!

SO happy for you!

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CHRISTINASP 12/27/2012 10:44AM

    That is great! Thank you for sharing!

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IZZYBEBOP 12/27/2012 10:37AM

    I'm so proud of you! Awesome!

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SEATTLE58ANEW 12/27/2012 10:25AM

    emoticon emoticon You're doing it! I'm so proud of you!! You're doing so good at stopping and smelling the roses. with enjoying life!! emoticon

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DESERTDREAMERS 12/27/2012 9:44AM

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RISINGBLUESTAR 12/27/2012 9:00AM

    So proud of you. High five. Woohoo! :) emoticon

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PROUD-GRANDMA 12/27/2012 8:22AM

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