The other night, I had a dream about me losing the fear that's festering inside of me. It was very profound, beautiful actually. I think, its not just about me losing weight. I'm starting to realize that. I thought that me losing weight will be the source of my happiness. But, its not that, It's me. I've realized that I have been living in a prison within my own mind, that its really have took a toll. It's took over my health, my enegry, my well being. And, since the car accident on thanksgiving eve, its much worst. When your living in fear, you stop living. So, I've decided to start losing the fear. I want to do this each day, whether its wearing my curly fro', singing in public, talk to a cute guy, whatever it is. I want to go out and do it. I don't want to lose meaningless weight, and then become scared of something and pack it back on. I know my biggest fear is to disappointing someone and myself. But, I have to let that go. It's not helping me, its seriously hurting me.