Okay, so this is me trying to be accountable for all the things that I've eaten today with careless abandon, culminating with several handfuls of chocolate chips (straight from the bag, no less) and also sprinkled over my HOT CHOCOLATE that I decided I just had to have right now... ugghhhh! I don't even know if I'm capable of using the nutrition tracker, so I'll start here. Better than nothing, right?

It all started when I got home from work last night at 1:50AM. Actually, it started before that, on my way home for work. It was probably at 1:00AM. I hadn't eaten anything in my 8-hour shift because it was incredibly busy, not even time to sit down or pee, let alone eat or drink water. So when I finally did sit down in the car once I had punched out, I ate the Greek yogurt and Kashi granola bars that I had brought with the intention to eat mid-shift. Not a bad choice. Then I got home. Drank a large glass of ice water. Poured myself another, drank that. Took a shower. Decided it was as good a time as any to munch on dark chocolate pistachio and cranberry bark, then peppermint bark, THEN iced sugar cookies... I think I went to bed after that, can't remember if I ate something else. Oh, wait... it was 2 cold chocolate chip pancakes that I found in the fridge.

I woke up this morning at 8AM. Made coffee, breakfast for my honey and his cousin who is visiting and staying with us for the holidays, and then cut an apple for myself and ate it with a serving of PB2. The coffee, I had 2 cups with probably about 1/2 cup of 2% milk. Then, went to the gym for 1-1/2 hrs. Drank a bottle of water. Came home, showered. What did I eat then? I can't even remember. Probably more dark chocolate and peppermint bark. And sugar cookies.

Then, the grocery shopping. Finished that. Unloaded all the food. Ate about 1 cup of diced honeydew melon. Then 3/4 pear. Then a bunch of grapes. Then several spoonfuls of almond butter, straight from the jar. Not one of my better moments, I'll admit. I think I may have eaten more chocolate bark. Probably more sugar cookies. And a couple of Hershey's kisses because, at that point I was probably thinking to myself "well, why the heck not?"

Around 3PM I went to pick up the BF from work, came home. Separated all the bulk chicken and beef that was bought during grocery shopping. Ate more chocolate bark, Hershey kisses and, you guessed it, another sugar cookie. Made some lunch for the honey, snacked on the cheddar cheese with which I topped his hamburger salad. Then I heated up a little portion of whatever was leftover from what I made yesterday before I went to work (whole wheat pasta with spinach and artichokes in cheddar cheese sauce). Made some tea. Drank that. Decided I wanted something crunchy to munch on, had a LARGE bowl of Raisin Bran Crunch laced with Kashi GoLean, 1/2 cup of 2% milk, which strangely enough was the only thing I felt needed to be measured via measuring cup. Hah. Then I started in on the chocolate chips, hot chocolate with whipped cream and MORE chocolate chips.

Now it's 6:50PM and I'm cooking dinner for my BF. Shredded chicken burritos, with brown rice and beans. Surely to be accompanied with lettuce, tomato, avocado, cheddar, and sliced black olives.

Will this be all that I eat today? Sadly, I don't think so. Because I also am considering making some popcorn to go with the movie we're planning to watch tonight.

AND I just ate a chocolate chip that I found stuck in my bathrobe. This is now getting embarrassing. There is a food-beast that lives within, and it cannot be tamed.