Wednesday, December 26, 2012
Today is my one-year Spark-iversary!! Yea for me!!
It was one year ago today that I joined Sparkpeople, one year today that I woke up so disgusted with myself for the weight I had gained over the past year. I had tried other plans, and when they didn't work for more than a few months, I tried to go solo. That didn't work, either. I recalled that someone, or a few someones, had told me about SP, a free life-style changing site. What really attracted me was the FREE part. In the past, when I had hit a plateau, I quit, deeming it was useless to pay for a program that was no longer working.
If I had to use one phrase to describe this past year, it would be 'roller-coaster'. I knew that losing weight wouldn't be easy; it hadn't been easy in the past. But I have come out as a stronger person, one willing to go the extra step. And I am now a person who, after almost 32 years of marriage and two adult children, can put MYSELF first.
I've lost 28.5 pounds. Doesn't seem like a lot, especially considering all the hard work I've done for the last twelve months, all the sweat equity I've put into my body, all the fancy meals I've done without in the name of 'taking care of myself'. And I know that for some people, it doesn't seem like a big loss. It seems like I should have done better, worked harder, done without more often than I did.
But I'm happy with my progress. For one thing, it's 28.5 freaking pounds. Imagine 114 sticks of butter, stuck all over my body!! Yuck! For another, I have learned, and continue to learn, about myself, my old life habits that were almost 50 years in the making, and how to overcome them. I have learned to not eat until I feel ill, just because I'm having a bad day, bad week, bad month. I'm learning to not judge others, and not judge myself. I'm learning that I can have friends who don't judge me, or understand that one meal can derail a week's worth of hard work; friends who support me, no matter what I'm going through. And I'm learning that I want to continue on this track, to find out what the rest of my life can be without lugging around an extra 50 or 60 pounds.
Here's to the next year!! Cheers to ME!!!