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How time flies in a bad way

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

I have been putting off getting back on here for a has been just about a year since I last tracked, and longer than that since I tracked consistently. The expected result has happened - I am approaching my highest weight since 2003.

I have many excuses - 2012 has not been kind to me. Most importantly, my Mom passed away in April which, even though she was ill for a long time, has been a blow that has been very difficult for me to deal with - much harder than I expected. Naively, I thought that I was more prepared due to her long illness than I was. Add onto that three bulging discs in February that went misdiagnosed until May that were easily reinjured in July and September, plus a torn oblique body surfing in early December, and I have done very little exercise in 2012 compared to my usual high-exercise lifestyle in the 9 years previous.

But in the end, excuses do nothing for me - the end result is the same. I'm back into obese +200 lb territory and the only person holding me back from improving my health is me.

Sparkfriends, I see that many of you are still on here and have been doing a much better job of caring for yourselves than I have, and I'm both proud of you and envious. I'm grateful for any holding to account, but understand that ultimately I have to kick my own rear end into action.

I hope that everyone has an enjoyable end to 2012, and here's to 2013 where I want to be a healthier version of me.
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  • KA_JUN
    Good to see you, again! Sorry to hear about the injuries, know how that is and how it can quickly snowball into bad trends. Things happen, they're not excuses, stuff harms your morale, your motivation. Condolences on your loss. Don't be too hard on yourself, it doesn't help bring you back to where you want to be. You know what you need to do to lay the groundwork to encourage positive trends. You can, and you will. Believe!
    1904 days ago
    I'm so glad to see you again! I had wondered where you had gotten off to. Yes, ditto to what Carol said, join us on the daily thread, that's probably one of the only reasons I'm still here and still swimming. Even if you can't get there daily, if you stop by weekly, you'll be welcomed with open arms.

    I'm so very sorry for the loss of your mother. I agree, you're never truly prepared, no matter what you think. But each day will be a little less painful than the day before.

    Happy 2013, and no more injuries!
    1907 days ago
  • BILL60
    2012 is almost history, but 2013 is not. Make this coming year your best ever. Just hang tough and do it.
    1907 days ago
    Thanks, Carol, I will. I did find that last time I let myself get distracted by taking too much time reading along with the tracking, but it might work if I set a time limit for myself...

    The good news is that tracking is definitely easier than it was the first time I signed up here... :-)
    1907 days ago
    Try joining us on the daily thread, we will all be happy to help. It can be frightening at first because we are all very close, but we LOVE to welcome new people and it's a great way to stay accountable.

    We all want you to feel supported in your path to healthier living.

    1907 days ago
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