Wednesday, December 26, 2012
many frustrations beyond my control this year. i vented a lot, but not really to the right persons. i am working on thinking about why i am angry first, then feeling it appropriately, then talking to the right person (these days mostly my DH). I am trying to understand his POV about jobs. but i just can't. i know there aren't many jobs out there and he doesn't do well with every type of job. however, he already has a job now. why is he so resistant in trying to find out what will work for him with his current job?
I have gone to one counseling appointment. I get 6 free through EAP @ my work. so, i am hoping i can take advantage of this opportunity to learn new coping techniques. I do love my husband and he is a wonderful man who takes care of me. it's just a couple of behaviors he has that rub me the wrong way. so, i realize i need to work on me and how i respond to them. that means, i have to take care of me first, then the dogs, then him. it's a HUGE order and it won't happen overnight. but, it WILL happen. after all, my parents are complete opposites and they have been married (maybe not happily the whole time) for almost 50 years.