Wednesday, December 26, 2012
I feel like the kid whose mother is confronting her about whether or not she ate the last cookie in the cookie jar. I wanna just hang my head and shuffle my feet. I feel guilty.
There's a good time for guilt and there's a time where it just doesn't work with whatcha' gotta do. It's time for me to let go of the guilt. It's been taking my power away.
I've gained 20 lbs. How did that happen? Short and simple...changes.
I'm gonna be a little kind to myself on this one. Just a little bit. Yeah, I'm gonna except responsibility, too. I definitely stopped working out like I used to. I definitely need to track my food, drink my water, ramp up the cardio, and other stuff that I was better about.
But, I've also been downsized from my job. This downsized me from my exercise support group. Before that, I was downsized from a tiny romance. Nothing ugly. Just something that needed to happen. But of course, you still feel it a little bit. And, all this while going thru menopause and anemia. Yeah, I'm gonna use that excuse too.
I'm not trying to be about the excuses. I'm just trying to get at exactly what happened. I'm gonna sum it up by saying my set up changed and it's time to make needed adjustments.
My new place of work has a great place to walk and I'm gonna track down some walking buddies. I know I'll find them. Meanwhile, I'll take any cheering I can get.
As I live and breath, I gotta do it healthily.