YUP! That's the title of my blog. Every year I make decisions to lose weight, quit smoking, exercise more. Within a few months I throw it all away. I don't know how many years now it's been that I have started out the new year with high hopes and ended it the same way I started, by giving up.
So this year I am changing me as a goal. I want to change the way I think about things, go about doing things, make decisions. I want to organize myself internally before I can change me externally. Does that make sense? I want to change the way I think about eating before I try to change my eating habits. I want to change the way I think about exercise before I exercise. I want to throw the DANG cigarette away for good. What's the point of trying to be healthy if I am internally damaging myself with nicotine, or potato chips? I don't get my thought process sometimes so that is what I want to work on.
I also resigned from my job and will be starting a new job on the 7th of January. This position is something I have been working towards all my career and I let it go temporarily for a job that I thought would be easier on me. It may have been easier on me when it came to work hours but that's about it. I felt like I wasn't being challenged, like I was being treated as a "WOMAN" in the man's work environment and not being appreciated as the woman who came in daily on time, never called out, and worked as hard if not harder then most of the males I worked with.I even went to work for two weeks after my head injury. I tried.
So my goals this year:
Excel in my new position as DIRECTOR OF SERVICE OPERATIONS. I will be starting full service departments for a dealership that currently only does wheelchair lifts. I will be starting them at 4 different locations for them. Hard work, I know. But I am up for the challenge.
Change the way I go about eating. I can go an entire day eating healthy and then pop a bag of chips in my mouth. Hence why I have only lost small amounts of weight. I mostly maintain.
Change the way I go about exercising. I need to internally change my frame of mind when it comes to exercising. I have to start thinking that even though I HATE TO EXERCISE, it's good for my body and well being. I definitely need to stop just doing burst of exercises for a few weeks then none for a few months. It has to be part of my weekly schedule.
QUIT SMOKING, AGAIN. Nuff said
How the h@$%% can someone run after smoking a cigarette. I DO, and it isn't easy. I feel like crap every time but continue to do it.
My life is organized when it comes to home, marriage. Now I need to work more on me personally, internally before I can work on me externally. I intend on reaching my goals this year.
So here I stand saying I am "changeinme" for the better!