Tuesday, December 25, 2012
I have been thinking about how this year has gone from me weight wise. It is not encouraging. I weigh right about the same as I did one year ago today. I feel bloated and just plain fat. I know where I have slacked off and I have been thinking about what has all been going on lately that makes me want to eat like a pig. I believe it is nothing but stress. Not so much stress about finances and things like that, not even health issues for me. It all boils down to one six letter word and that nasty word is cancer and the five letter word that goes along with it and that is chemo. To go along with the five letter word is a three letter word and that is Pet. At least the words are getting shorter. It is always there at the back of my mind no matter how hard I try to push it completely away. I don't know exactly how to put all this in words. My mind just keeps going around in circles with it. I am opting to get off this merry go round and start again to take care of myself so that I am a better care giver to Jeff. I know that at this time last year we were both under the gun. Well my gun was fixed on March 1st and the period of breaking it in went rather smoothly so now it is time to get back in the saddle and get myself under control.
Time for me to call it a day. I am tired and have done too much stinking thinking. Tomorrow is a new day and we are supposed to be in a blizzard by then. For a while it looked as though it was not going to be too bad for us, but things have been updated and while we won't get the worst, we will not be missing it by far. Will let you know tomorrow how the wind howls and the visibility turns to a white out
God bless all of you You are and will be in my thoughts and prayers.