Tuesday, December 25, 2012
I just realized that I sort of stopped my goal tracking and disappeared from the Sparkiverse. Here's why... I've had a lot on my mind lately. First, my engagement is off and we broke up. Which sucks, but is probably for the best. Also, my brother's stuff is stressing me out (won't go into detail here, but if you are close to me, you know why. If not, ask me on FB or text me). I was out of town for a while visiting a friend, and then I went to see my family for the holidays.
I am losing a lot of weight. I stopped exercising, and I am just not eating nearly as much, and I know it's probably not good, but I have no appetite. I am not anorexic or anything...I would say I am probably eating 1000-1500 cal per day, but I don't really know since I haven't tracked it lately. I assume my eating will go back to normal eventually. And I know I will exercise again. Just, trying to deal with everything right now, emotionally. Sort of proud of myself for not slipping into my old habits of eating everything in sight to numb out the pain, but I also realize that I need to be eating more often. And more nutritious things. Balance needs to be struck.
So yeah... weight goals don't have nearly as much meaning to me right now, but I did hit one: 349, which is 70 lbs down from my starting weight (hit for the second time this year). I am currently 347.6, which is my lowest weight of the year. Last year at this time, I was in the upper 380's, so that's pretty good. Except, I want a faster pace for next year. I plan to be nearing the 250 mark come next Christmas.
Anyway, I will be around. I will post more when I find the motivation to do so.
Update: I am on a journey of self-discovery. I am realizing a lot of things about myself and I will be updating with a blog in the somewhat-near future. Anyway, I am feeling very positive, so please don't worry about me, and thank you all for your kind words.