Tuesday, December 25, 2012
I don't know what to say really, I've been gone a long time. I feel a little bit like someone who broke off a relationship and guiltily is asking to be taken back, even though I really don't deserve it. Maybe I got too busy in my life, maybe i became a little prideful in my success. I was doing so well at playing the weight loss game that I thought I didn't need Spark in my life any more. Oh, and it was quite a lot of work actually. Finding a place to hang out with internet access so I could log the food I ate, keeping track of food until I found a place. Finding time to exercise as my job became more and more consuming of my time. I was talking to a friend recently and she pointed out the stupidity of it. I have been blessed with a fairly flexible schedule, and I don't think twice about leaving work to take my daughter to her riding lessons, or other other commitments on her schedule, and yet I use my schedule as an excuse to not make time for a workout. Why do I sabotage myself like that? I didn't even realize how long it has been since I have had Spark in my life until I logged on and my last post was in February.
So my dear dear Spark. Please forgive me. I strayed but it meant nothing. I was stupid. Without you I just am not as successful as I could be. If you will have me, I will stick with you. I am a better person with you. I was so silly to think otherwise. I will be a perfect angel.