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Let Me Start a Fire With Your Spark

Monday, December 24, 2012

I was thinking this could be an appropriate blog song, plus the quoted lyric is epic.

I know many are not reading. It is family time. It is celebration time. It is a time for letting go, a bit, as we begin to truly let go of the old year. And a lot of us end up letting go of our disciplines as well.


Let us, instead, let go of our anger. Let's kick resentment to the curb. Let's push slights and hurts and grudges away.

And let us leave ourselves with a far more positive essence within.

Perhaps, a case in pernt.

Mr. j and I were talking the other day. And we were describing what he eats for breakfast, versus what I eat. Now, there are days when he eats very healthfully indeed (oatmeal and the like). And there are days when his choices are, let's just say, less than optimal.

Yet he weighs less than me. And he is losing weight this way.

It angered me, truth be told. I wasn't angered at him (it's just his metabolism, after all). Rather, I was angry at the injustice of it all.

I had/have been good. I eat Cheerios and toast! Or I have a veggie omelet made with Pam! And that's just breakfast.

My lunches are usually better (in terms of health) than his are. My dinners are often the same, but when they vary, they are generally better.

I lift weights every damned day. He lifts much less often. He does walk more than I do, and he's faster. But apart from that, what gives?

And then I remembered. Or, rather, he reminded me.

* I am female.
* I am 50 years old.
* There is a history of all sorts of obesity, mainly on my mother's side but also for most of the women on my father's side as well.
* I have only been doing this for just under 5 years, and not over 45, like he has.
* And I am starting from far heavier, even now, and was starting for WAY heavier 5 years ago.

And so I remembered - life isn't fair, but there are still some reasons for the unevenness.

And I also remembered.

* I do the best to take care of myself.
* I walk even though I get discouraged.
* I race even though I am usually last.
* A lack of results is no excuse for screwing up and REALLY having a reason for no results.

Allow me to repeat that little tidbit.

A lack of results is no excuse for screwing up and REALLY having a reason for no results.

I swear, I should tattoo that on my forehead in mirror script.

And yanno what happened last week?

I ate my good breakfasts, and lunches, and dinners. I lifted. I walked. I even took a rare rest day.

And I lost over 7 pounds.

Now, at this stage of things, 7 pounds is generally a good 5 of water and salt. But I will take it gladly, and I will remind myself of what seems to be a universal truth, now and in all seasons -

Life ain't fair. But keep plugging anyway. And don't kick yourself for being imperfect. You are no angel, in your behaviors or your choices or your results.

So instead, you get to settle for being human.

And that's kinda cool.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
DMPRIDER 1/4/2013 10:52PM

    Thanks for the reminder! Lack of results is no reason to throw in the towel, exercising and eating right is still better for us than not. Very good points to remember!

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    Well that was a great way to end the year. And it is encouraging me to be more thorough too. Thanks Jes.

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CAROLISCIOUS 12/31/2012 10:34AM

    Congrats on the loss...keep those good things going!

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STRINGS58 12/31/2012 8:12AM

    Excellent, Excellent blog! I really enjoyed reading this! I hear the messages loud and clear and I LIKE 'em! Thanks! Thanks for the background music too. May you have a Happy New Year full of compassion and continued dedication! emoticon

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DDOORN 12/25/2012 4:42PM

    Great thoughts for the New Year ahead, heck for EVERY DAY ahead!

Can't start a fire without a SPARK! :-)


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SAINTBETH 12/25/2012 12:11PM

    good reminders

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    Great sentiments! Happy day every day Jes.

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WOLFKITTY 12/24/2012 8:45PM

    Good rememberings! :)


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PHEBESS 12/24/2012 5:07PM

    Yup - DH can lose weight on what he calls the pastry diet - I'd gain if I did that. Life isn't fair. But we each do the best we can with what we've got!

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GUITARWOMAN 12/24/2012 2:19PM

    Yes, being human is kind of our best, take responsibility, and forgive our own lapses.....that's what it is about!

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MS.ELENI 12/24/2012 12:59PM

    emoticon Have a great Christmas eve

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