Today's assignment on the "Community Page" part of the daily SparkCoach routine is:
"Spend a few minutes writing about the reasons behind your fitness and weight-loss goals. What is your true motivation? What do you hope to achieve or experience after reaching your goal?"
Yes, I've set goals - but really only because you are supposed for the program. So, in a lot of ways this is a good exercise for me. What am I looking for in the goals that I set grudgingly?
What's my "true" motivation?
I don't know - or well I know but it's a negative goal in that it's not something positive and uplifting that I'm aiming for
I don't want to get Type 2 diabetes.
Maybe try to word it more positively. "I want to avoid Type 2 diabetes."
No, I don't think that's any better.
"I want to eat healthy and get fit because people who eat healthy and are fit don't get Type 2 diabetes."
That's more positive - but I'm not all that sure it's completely true.
The thing is it runs in the paternal side of my family and I'm not sure I'll avoid it no matter what I do. Sorry, but I've known healthy weight & active diabetics.
The example in the video coaching that went with today was a fella that the SparkPeople head office folks knew personally who was in visiting and said, "I need to lose 20 pounds." They all went to work on him to get him to start the cool motivational stuff (that always seems rather silly to me). First up was this very assignment. WHAT DID HE REALLY WANT? Yeah - lose 20 pounds, but WHY? He wanted to be healthier and in better shape so he could play basketball with his son.
Really cool! Really. That's an awesome, positive goal. And he achieved it.
Of course he did - other wise SparkGuy wouldn't have used it for an example.
I don't have anything like that I want to do. Maybe play more easily with my grandkids, but even that is a minor thing as I don't see them all that often.
There's no sport I want to play.
My husband has no interest in dancing (he is ungainly) or us playing any sport except maybe golf (which I'm horrible at) and, at least at this point in time, he's not home much anyway as his work takes him on the road.
The things I love to do the most are all things one usually sits down to do. NO I did not choose to love them because they are sitting things - I loved them first and started doing most of them while I was a slender 9 year old through a slender high school senior.
Reading. Fine Arts. Crafts. and lately add to those Writing and working with photos I've taken.
I like walking, but only if I get to stop and look at things that catch my eye - usually taking photos of them. That's not "exercise" walking. I don't enjoy exercise walking and the times I've tried it (note *times* not just once) I've ended up hurting my feet, ankles or knees.
"What do you hope to achieve or experience after reaching your goal?"
Ah . . . be thinner?
Not get diabetes?
I don't expect to feel all energetic. It's never happened the other times in my life when I've done Weight Watchers and lost the weight I wanted to lose and exercised consistently. That's probably part of why I've never been able to maintain the habits. It hasn't ever become something enjoyable that I look forward to. Neither the healthy eating nor the exercise. They always stay something I have to do whether I really want to or not - which really doesn't lend itself to having them become permanent life habits.
If I'm honest about it, I still want to eat what I want to eat without having to measure it all (and no, I don't always eat huge portions either nor do I snack between meals) and I really don't enjoy taking time out of my day to change clothes, get all sweaty, have to take a shower and put on lotion, get dressed again.
So, as usually seems to be the case when I come here, I now feel dejected and depressed.
I want to lose weight so I might not become diabetic.
Not a "yipee let's get all excited to reach this exciting, happy goal" goal. Which probably explains a huge amount of why I've not been able to get motivated or excited, why all the excitement and perky motivation stuff here usually seems silly or makes me feel dejected, and why I haven't even done any of the program except go through the daily 5 SparkCoach steps so I get them checked off and get the Spark Points for them.
I don't want to have a close "diet" or "Spark" buddy who I'm accountable to and all that because I know I'll feel crappy when (if) she progresses along and is losing weight and feeling more energetic and what if I'm not?
I'd probably do better if I had a "diet" or "Spark" buddy who was motivated and enthusiastic. Maybe it would drag me along till some of it started to wear off on me.
I was very enthusiastic the two times I did Weight Watchers and made my weight goals and was doing my exercising. But both times it didn't stick. Didn't last. Didn't become healthy lifestyle habits. I'm really having trouble getting all perky for stuff that didn't work twice before.
BUT . . .
I really do want to lose weight.
I really do want to be more fit.
I deeply wish I could see all the stuff you have to do to accomplish that as something other than a major drag that probably won't stick with me anyway.