Endless Cycle :(
Monday, December 24, 2012
I'm back, and I'm at least 10 lbs heavier. I managed to dismantle all the gains I made over the summer during the colder months. Can't say I'm surprised, I've been here at least 3 or 4 times before, it's no less depressing though.
I knew I was gaining, I wasn't able to stop those bad food choices, I was ignoring the scale. When I finally got the nerve to step on the scale it said I was 185 lbs - heaviest ever. I was dizzy with confusion, I didn't think I had let it go that far. Turned out that my cheap Ikea scale is pretty off though, I used the scale at the Y and I weighed in at 173. Still it was a wake up call. The only positive that I can glean from this is I'm starting way earlier than I usually do to get back on track. Normally I just hibernate the whole winter until the warmer weather comes.
This time I'm not going super heath nut crazy and trying to lose 10 lbs in 2 months, I'm going for 10 lbs in 4 months. I think I've learned by now that I deprive myself of too much trying to stick to something that strict. I NEED something sustainable, I want off this yo-yo.