Sunday, December 23, 2012
I'm writing this blog in a very unhappy place. I got on the scale this morning and found that I have GAINED 5.6 POUNDS IN A WEEK!!! How in the world did that happen?! Well, I know how it happened, but it doesn't mean I'm not still surprised it's so much. So this morning I reset the ground rules with my fiance that we are not going to eat out, no more junk food, and no more going over calories unless it's a special occasion such as Christmas or a birthday or something, but THAT'S IT! I'm really upset. I am officially 28 pounds away from being back at my worst and that terrifies and pisses me off to no end. I must regain control. Because my fiance and I made a huge decision this week. We decided we wanted to get pregnant, but knew we were in for a long road between my weight, the whole birth control throwing me out of whack and all my female issues. But all of these things can be fixed or at least controlled by me gaining control of my weight. I can't do this anymore. I can't get pregnant and I can't have a healthy pregnancy unless I gain control. And I will. I'm done playing games here. Anyway, that's all I have to update this week. I hope everyone has a merry Christmas, and a healthy one to boot.