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Saturday, December 22, 2012

i lay awake all night crying ,thinking and praying,i have asked all 3 of my children for help but they all say they can not temporarily take me in to give me the help i need.I have decided it must be nicer in hell than my whole life has been!!!So i have hit a brick wall here. there must be a major change take place or all this mights just as well end because i am feeling and walking like im in complete darkness now.No matter how many friends i have or whatever family that cant or wont help,I am completely ALONE in my life.I am putting them and IT in a jar and not taking any of it out again ever because it hurts and brings me too much pain to go on.I am totally alone and nothing really matters.

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DIANAS 12/25/2012 12:25AM

    I feel for you! It must be difficult to go through these emotions. I have my huge ups and downs, so when I get sad, i really see ONLY the bad things that have happened in my life and see myself as a worthless person. But sometimes it helps to try your best to remember the good moments and times.
For example the time when someone said something good to you, the time when you achieved something great (like a health goal or weight loss or others), the day when you felt great and the sun was shining, appreciate what you have etc.
Seek for help and advice when needed and never give up!

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68ANNE 12/24/2012 5:25PM

    Love and God

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SILVER1369 12/23/2012 3:03PM

    The Lord is always with you you are never alone. I hope you have taken the advice and called a help line. emoticon

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OKBACK2ME 12/22/2012 10:07PM

    emoticon It is a hard time for your right now. I am hearing you say it is becoming unbearable. Maybe it is time to reach out for help outside of your family and friends. There are a lot of dedicated people out there that will be able to help you.

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LALMEIDA 12/22/2012 8:49PM

  Call a hotline or go to an emergency room. It sounds like you need help that only professionals can give.

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MARYBETH4884 12/22/2012 7:32PM

    You are not alone! God is with you, he loves you. Lean on him right now, Pray, cry out! He does hear you. If you don't have a church find one! You need a support system of people and friends who also love the Lord! You will be in my prayers!

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SAINTBERNARD6 12/22/2012 6:53PM

    Asking God to watch over you and to send an angel to guide, scream, holler, or just jabber at God because He always listens. He will see to your needs but YOU have to ask Him as He doesn't force His love on anyone....

You can even send me an email as I would really like to hear from you...Elsie

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BOBBIENORTHERN1 12/22/2012 12:54PM

  I don't know what to say....maybe Jesus can lead and guide you into all truth about what to do?

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KITT52 12/22/2012 12:14PM

    remember you are not have the Lord, he is always with you....

please talk to me or any of the others who have posted here...

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GARDENCHRIS 12/22/2012 10:18AM

    Call a hot line...Please.... your family IS HELPING you by not rescuing you anymore.... they do not want the life you are in to be a part of their life .... take control of your LIFE...... there is hope for you.... reach out for it... God bless.

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NEVERORNOW 12/22/2012 10:03AM

    PLEASE get help by calling the 24-hour National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) or find the number of your local women's shelter and call them NOW! Help is waiting for you and we love you here at SP but can't do it for you. Please call them and then let us know. I'm praying for you and know that many others here are, too, but you have to take that first step to get out of there and to safety. You're not alone. Many women have been where you are and have gotten help to have a good life.

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DIET_FRIEND 12/22/2012 9:55AM

    Praying for you. It sounds like you are definitely in a tough place.

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ADIOSALL 12/22/2012 9:39AM

    If you want to talk, call 1-800-273-TALK (8255) for emotional crisis. Don't wait!

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PATTYKLAVER 12/22/2012 9:24AM

    Call a hotline. Talk to clergy. Someone will listen and lend a hand. Send me a sparkmail. I will always listen.

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PAULA-ZARYA 12/22/2012 8:24AM

    Don't give up get some help and talk this out

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RSSSLHB 12/22/2012 7:50AM

    DEBBIELCG is so right get some HELP,

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DEBBIELCG 12/22/2012 7:41AM

    i wish you the best. you might want to consider seeking some professional help. There is a lot of help out there and i always feels better to share your concerns with others.

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