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Overwhelmed & angry..and about to leave Russia

Friday, December 21, 2012

I'll keep this blog short.

Tomorrow is my last day in Russia!

I consider myself lucky because I have my Rubles set aside to get my hair done, buy that Matrioshka (nesting doll) paired with Bear Vodka I'll be giving someone in my family for our secret santa celebrations on Christmas eve. My friend also gave me a spa certificate for my birthday which I need to use.

I am happy about these things. But am drowning in anxiety, sadness and a bit of anger tonight. I could cry I am so overwhelmed.

Today was my last day of teaching at my school. My contract was shortened to save a millionarie just a bit more money (that means they have unquestioned power in this country) and while many of my kids are too young to understand that Miss. Samantha is leaving forever it absolutely hurt to see a Mother cry today.

Oh god. I am unemployed again.

What is more? A job offer that I terribly want in Germany is hanging on tenderhooks. We are waiting for state approval of my teaching qualifications. We are being given the tenth degree because even though I have a very advanced degree and age relevant experience they aren't keen on my 'secondary' rather than 'primary' title.

This is driving me insane!!! I want an answer already. I have done so many interviews, a site visit and nothing has come of it! I have been looking for a better teaching contract for the last two months and now I am so close but at the mercy of an office that probably doesn't know the depth of my experience. How long must we wait anyway? Another two weeks?!

Why the hell are we debating my two year MA when the standard Kindergarten teacher in Germany only trains for a year?! (and not at university level) ARRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!!!

What angers me more is that I wrote to the department head of my university to ask for official documentation that would support my current case----no response---what's worse is that this person knows me and knows that as a foreign student I paid a huge tution for my degree and this is the respect I get as an alluma?
Oh please, all I want for a Christmas is a 'ja.'
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    hi love.sorry i am behind in my blogs lol.have you heard about the kindergarten job in germany?which part of germany did you apply?i live in m√ľnchen and i know the kindergartens here are always looking for kids kindergarten seems to be always short staffed.sorry your job got caught short and hope you get another one soon.take care and keep smiling. emoticon
    1541 days ago
    I am so sorry Sam that this is happening to you ..
    Just try and remember that something will always turn up when you least expect it ...
    Try to have a happy Christmas ..
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    You are in my thoughts and prayers .. Hugs Susie
    1554 days ago
    Hi there! I work with unemployed folks here in Texas and I hear the same thing again and again: Why did I lose my job? It's so unfair! Why is it taking forever for the next job to appear? Why isn't the hiring manager getting back to me right away?

    A good waiter gets a good tip.

    I know it's hard to keep perspective through this, but please remember that this is a crazy week with lots of decision makers on vacation or otherwise distracted. Keep the faith1 You may not get the job in Germany, but you will land the job that's right for you.
    1556 days ago
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    1556 days ago
    Good luck. Hoping you get a positive response as your Christmas present. emoticon
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    1556 days ago

    It's politics. It's always about politics when something like this happens. So, don't beat yourself up. Try to stay positive ! Everything really does have a way of working out for the best.

    Were you at least able to have a going away party with the children ? Do they have access to SKYPE ? If so, you could always contact them through SKYPE every so often to stay in touch. You could even become pen pals with some of them. Do people still do that ? When I was a kid, we had pen pals and wrote letters. That might be something fun for everyone.


    1556 days ago
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