Friday, December 21, 2012
Do you want to know what sucks? Being afraid to look in a mirror because all you see is flaws. Being afraid of the scale because it very well might ruin your whole day and not in an abstract way. In a tears and anxiety kind of way. Having a fun night out and eating a little extra and then being wracked with guilt. Worrying about missing a workout. Knowing that your body is a good body and that it is strong as crap and more fit than ever but still hating it. Being afraid to talk about it because you'll immediately get the eye roll and a "You're not fat!" comment even though really you need help.
Know what doesn't suck? Deciding to love the body you have. Getting rid of the scale. Working hard because it feels so GOOD to work hard with a body you love, not one you hate.
I think I might finally be there.