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Sorry SP BFF's for being MIA

Friday, December 21, 2012

AHHHHHHHH - [just a little scream to get me through my disappointment in myself]

So here I am - I have been trying to spark since work really picked up in Sept/Oct....then we bought a house....then Thanksgiving...and now X-mas.....and now the guilt starts to kick in when I get on the scale this morning 5 pounds up from where I was in Sept. We have also been trying for a baby these past 2 months ((so far with no luck :( ))--- so the emotional eating behind that is killing me.

I wonder why I do this - I haven't committed murder but I feel just as guilty facing my SP BFF's.

We can only look forward right? Here goes nothing. We drive from VA to MA tomorrow to be with family for the holidays. My parents have a treadmill and I packed gym clothes and I'm going to make a serious effort to watch myself.

I miss all of you!!! It was so nice to take time this morning and go through your spark pages - you are all doing so great!!!!! Sorry for falling off the wagon. I'm running after you guys to get back on it - will you let me back on? emoticon

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    Dont ever apologize - its hard to "come back" even after a short time!!! I give you a lot of credit for doing it! I've had to have 2 different total restarts since I joined Spark and sometimes its waht it takes. forget the past and start going forward.
    1789 days ago
  • LYNSEY723
    I have also fallen off the wagon, and I am okay with it - I am just making sure I don't lose sight of it. I know in the past I felt guilt and would avoid SP so that I didn't have to admit my failure. Now, I know that if I continue logging into SP and blogging and reading blogs, I will keep the wagon in sight. I will be in the right mindset come January to get back on the wagon and kick some booty. Don't feel guilty - so many of us are struggling right now with the holidays. Just do your best and aim for getting back on track January 1, 2013!
    1794 days ago
    You don't need to feel guilty facing us! We're your wall of support, during the good, the bad, and the ugly parts of the journey!

    Forget what has happened these past few months, and just look to the future.

    1794 days ago
    never never look back! move forward from today on! You can do it!
    1794 days ago
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