Friday, December 21, 2012
My name is adventureseeker, and I am currently on a sugar bender.
I held out as long as possible before Christmas. I felt soooo goood.
Sugar is really where I fall apart.
But lets see. Oh, I already know where I've wavered, taken that side step, and fallen completely off the rails.
Today, for starters. (and I say this all because I know, I KNOW I am not the only one here feeling the effects of Christmas. I also fess up so I can look back in a week's time or a year's time and see how far I will have come.)
For the last 3 days I've had a piece and a half of homemade baklava each day.
Oh yes! you say, that's being all controlled! Alas, no.
Today and the day before yesterday I've had a homemade ooey gooey cinnamon bun.
Yesterday I had a cupcake, homemade. Divine. Oh and of course I had to sample the tipsy alcohol-induced frostings I was making for them.
Today I've also sampled the upside down gingerbread pudding cake. With a dollop of cream.
Oh, and did I mention Tuesday I had 12 almond roca. And everyday this week I've had a couple of chocolates.
Today, in fact, I had half a box of those cocoa dusted truffles that I find to be simply divine. They were on my work desk, supplied for me by my secret Santa. HALF a freakin BOX.
Did I mention Sugar is MY bender of choice?
I don't feel well. I feel so much better when I don't eat the sugary items. They *taste* good, and that is what is confusing my taste buds and body. And I have that won't-go-away sugar headache.
And of course since sugar is like crack and highly addicting, my body is all 'MORE! MORE!'
What do people do if they are alcoholics? Allow themselves to moderately drink? bah. Not a chance.
And I don't know how to cut it out completely. Forever. Is that what alcoholics say?
I have started each day with a good intention to just work one thing in. ONE. But I can't hardly handle just ONE thing. But right now I don't even want to THINK about sugary foods because I've eaten too much today.
And I know after Christmas I will cut sugar out again and lose weight again and feel soooo much better.
But for now, I thought I needed to share. For myself.