Advertisement -- Learn more about ads on this site.


    MOGENEO   11,802
SparkPoints
10,000-14,999 SparkPoints
 
 

glad i went


Wednesday, December 19, 2012

so today, i feel like a flu. not that i have the flu. but i feel like ... yucky. and that i am contagious. and that everyone around me that gets near me gets my... yuckiness.

so today, i realized that i am sooo. yucky. i say this because it is that time of year. Christmas. and what is going on for Christmas is that i am realizing that instead of sinning by overeating, i am being deceitful about how i am spending the money!!!!! aaaaahhhhhh!!!

so my husband catches me red handed. and instead of being humble about it, i am soooo defensive. i am angry. i am prideful. and when i tell my story to my co-workers, i make my husband out to be this tyrant. when my husband had every right to be upset. because when the shopping is all said and done, we can pay our bills! or we can put it to other kids! it's not like i don't have 10 kids, 5 parents, and 4 sisters and brothers to shop for!

but i prayed for my husband to have a deeper spiritual relationship with God. i prayed for my children to all learn, know, and accept God as their Lord and Savior. i prayed for my co-workers to accept Christ as their savior. so how is this helping them? or me? how do i help or say i am doing my part, if i can't be a solid example? and how can i make it to heaven, if i keep saying to God: "i know it's wrong, but i got this God, i got this.." last week i was in a study, and a friend of mine confessed she said that to herself, and i remember so strongly that is exactly how i think and feel when talking to God...

and how can God bless that when i am trying to negotiate my will and my selfishness and my sin into acceptance??
SHARE
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

SPARKLINGHOPE 12/20/2012 11:11AM

    emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
LOOKINGUP2012 12/20/2012 8:43AM

    Wow! Christmas shopping can be stressful. Next year let him do it : ) Just kiddin. Who knows, some people spread it out all year and hide them. I've never done that.

Report Inappropriate Comment
EDITOR 12/20/2012 1:54AM

    I limit myself by buying gift cards for others for Christmas presents. I can't go over budget that way, and it is never returned on the day after Christmas.

Report Inappropriate Comment

Add Your Comment to the Blog Post


Log in to post a comment.