Wednesday, December 19, 2012
I just finished up a few Christmas cards & I think I was too sticker happy. Now they are overly decorated but we can just go ahead and call that "festive." How are you doing with your Christmas/holiday cards & other things on your holiday to-do list? (If you celebrate, that is.)
Can you believe how fast Christmas is approaching? I am still thinking about the goals I want to set for next year. They will probably be small, manageable goals & only a few. I don't want to get ahead of myself.
One thing that I definitely need to do is surround myself with people who have healthy mindsets. It's not easy. Most of my friends have some form of an eating disorder. I pass no judgment on them & I understand how hard it is for them and I even understand the why (the triggers) to most of their issues but it can be extremely difficult to be around people who are always talking about weight and all things related in the worst way possible. (Not that I am perfect..obviously...)
In other words, I don't want to hear someone bashing their size or how much of a "cow" they are. I do realize that that is how people feel about themselves & not me but there are times when it can feel like a slap in the face. Mostly because I ask certain people to please refrain from doing that but they still continue to do it. I know it's a sickness but I am trying to get healthy in the healthiest way possible. That doesn't include bashing myself. That's not the easiest thing for someone who is very self critical but it's necessary. Bashing & self hate doesn't get you anywhere. It's useless. Don't get me wrong, my friends are great, fun people & I want to be there for them. I also just want to focus on getting healthy for myself and it's easier to do that around people who have a solid perception of what healthy is. I just wish the world wasn't so sick with perfectionism and standards that most people will never meet. Isn't it funny that we try to follow the standards but in reality, we are the ones enforcing them upon ourselves? Of course, the media reinforces it and maybe irritating family members! (you know who I am talking about. Your mom or sister or brother is obsessed with appearance. The one who picks at everyone's weight or their nose or whatever it may be.) My goal isn't to meet any standards. My goal is just to get healthy for myself. Nobody else. Not to please anyone or meet any kind of ridiculous criteria.
I just want to feel good & today, even though I still have a very long, long way to go, I am proud of myself because I have maintained my weight really well for over 2 years! Even though that doesn't seem like much, for someone with endocrine disorders
that is a big deal! :) My next goal is to get the weight off. It won't be easy at all but who needs easy? Bring on the challenge! :)
I wish all of you a very healthy mind for 2013. Hopefully, a healthy mind will translate into a healthy body. :)