Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Today, December 19th, I started over. I realize that in the last month I haven't done myself justice...no workouts, not logging my food, eating out, over eating, not drinking enough water. Well today I took my second first step.
I resolved that 31 pounds is NOT enough and that I have NO time to lollygag.
I put down the extra calories. I logged my food. I put down the Monster energy drinks to cut out caffeine. I filled up my water bottle.
It is my second first step and it is scary....I wonder if I am still motivated. I wonder if I still feel worth it. I wonder if I still have what it takes to keep going.
But I am standing here, one step further along.
Somewhere along the way I forgot my motivation. I forgot my value. I forgot my worth. I forgot about me.
Please pray for me. I need to keep going and going and going until I reach my destination. I am scared of the stones in the path and the stumbles that will inevitably come. But not so scared that I can't take my second first step......