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The second, first step

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Today, December 19th, I started over. I realize that in the last month I haven't done myself justice...no workouts, not logging my food, eating out, over eating, not drinking enough water. Well today I took my second first step.

I resolved that 31 pounds is NOT enough and that I have NO time to lollygag.

I put down the extra calories. I logged my food. I put down the Monster energy drinks to cut out caffeine. I filled up my water bottle.

It is my second first step and it is scary....I wonder if I am still motivated. I wonder if I still feel worth it. I wonder if I still have what it takes to keep going.

But I am standing here, one step further along.

Somewhere along the way I forgot my motivation. I forgot my value. I forgot my worth. I forgot about me.

Please pray for me. I need to keep going and going and going until I reach my destination. I am scared of the stones in the path and the stumbles that will inevitably come. But not so scared that I can't take my second first step......

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  • v OHMEMEME
    I have decided that there is no permanent destination, but a journey. Sure, I stop along the way to enjoy the moment, day, month, year and I also backtrack sometimes for good and not so good reasons but this journey does not end. Sometimes I am elated and others defeated but I will never give up or quit. You just took a break and made some choices that landed you here but the journey continues. Choose your path... I have by no means mastered this but have learned soooo much. Don't take on that all-or-nothing attitude. One step, one day at a time. You can do this, you have done this, you will do this, you are doing this! Keep Sparking! emoticon
    1278 days ago
  • v SADWHITEWOLF
    You still have your motivation! You know you want to get there. Just dust off your motivation and you WILL reach your goals!
    One step at at a time! It's enough. They add up!
    1278 days ago
  • v THESLIMMERME1
    emoticon emoticon one small step at a time - one small goal at a time.
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    1286 days ago
  • v HOTPINKCAMARO49
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    1287 days ago
  • v KTTAYLOR21
    You lost a little steam but you have it in you to KEEP GOING!!! Keep pushing one milestone at a time. YOU CAN DO IT. YOU'VE DONE IT ONCE, YOU CAN DO IT AGAIN!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1287 days ago
  • v MA_KING69
    what's the line ...'the journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step' ? Use the site . Use the community, give yourself permission to succeed and chase away that weight
    1287 days ago
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