Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Lately trepidation and anxiety have surrounded my weigh-ins. I don't know why the
has been freaking me out so much but it has. I think I am afraid that I will step on it and be back in the 230's again. Since the start of November, I have only been recording my weight every other Saturday rather than every Saturday. I just wasn't seeing enough movement to do it that frequently. This weekend is my true weigh in. Nonetheless, this morning I decided to step on the scale. In my mind, I just had to see how much weight I have gained since last weekend. I step on and the scale reads. . . 225.6!! Last week I was 226.4. To say I was shocked was an understatement. Its not that I don't believe in myself. I know I workout hard and consistently. My nutrition has been my struggle. Last Wednesday we had our holiday luncheon at work, that Thursday we went to Famous Dave's, Saturday was Derrell's work Christmas party and dinner and on Sunday we went to a buffet to celebrate his cousin's graduation. That is a lot of bad for me food!
I didn't gorge myself. As a matter of fact, I prepared for those events by eating light before hand and working out. On Monday I began food journaling again. To clarify, I have been logging my food since the start of my journey on bodybugg.com. For me journaling is different because I am carrying around a pen and notebook and writing down what I am GOING to eat (writing it before I munch lets me re-think whether it is worth it), the time I ate it (to ensure I am not bingeing or going too long between meals), and I am manually subtracting the calories from my allowance. I have been working on a 1500 calorie budget but both days I have ended above 1600. That is okay because my actual range is 1800 - 2200 calories based on my activity level though I am sure it needs be adjusted down a touch with my last few weigh-ins. I am also tracking how many servings of water I have. This has helped tremendously! I now have 3 marbles in my "POUNDS LOST 4EVA" jar and 35 in the "Pounds to Go" one.
As of today I only have 3.5 lbs to go until I reach 50 lbs down and I am soooo looking forward to it. My hopes are to reach that by New Year's Eve. I haven't considered my next mini goal after that. Maybe it will be to reach 214 by Valentine's Day (get it-2/14
). That would be sweet! I only have 2 lbs to go until I am at my lowest adult weight. I think I may just cry thinking about it! What kind of reward could I give myself for that victory? How should I commemorate that achievement?