Wednesday, December 19, 2012
I have always been a Radio Fan more than a T.V. one----maybe because of the Era I grew up in.For me Nostalgia means Memories of listening to the Music while falling asleep----in my childhood it was the Radio that played softly in the background as my parents discussed their day with each other in muted voices.For me even those muted voices humming in the background would be a major distraction--and I'd feel like shushing them soundly because this interfered with the strains of those beautiful Songs in the background.Today I have the facility of searching out many of those favourites online---and meeting even one such Song on the Internet gives me a wonderful feeling of Happiness and immense Satisfaction.
After I married Sudhir I'd tape different Songs in various permutations and combinations--for instance all the Songs that had "Night" as their theme and shared the same mood would be clubbed together--those featuring "Moon" or "Eyes" in another.These acted as our Lullaby each night--though Sudhir irritatedly grumbled that curiosity about which Song came next kept him awake till late each night--I could well see that it actually induced a relaxed and stress free night---for Music soothes the agitation and worries away!!Besides since early childhood I've always loved happy Songs---these just appealed to my positive nature!!Even today I still love those Songs---specially old Hindi Bollywood Songs--I marvel at the Poetry used by the Lyricists--who incidentally never made the grade as Poets except for a very select few!!Listening to the words for me is a high--for Sudhir it was the Tune rather than the words.He sang beautifully and while earlier I did sing Western Music the Hindi was somehow out of my range--except Songs by a seductively husky voiced lady named Geeta Roy Dutt!!!While I love many Songs by Lata Mangeshkar,Mubarak Begum,Sudha Malhotra and all my ultimate favourite singers however are both Geeta Dutt and Asha Bhosle--whose seductive and sensous voices weave a magic spell on one's senses!!
I still remember when I met Asha Bhosle face to face at a Wedding some 12 odd years ago.I was completely overwhelmed with emotion--my throat dried up and my voice froze--all I could do was just stand there clutching both her hands tightly in mine and just gaze at her awe struck--without saying a word for over 10 minutes!!Today my Cache of Music is vast--each night I listen to so many old favourites recorded in accordance in my preference on CDs each night---closing my eyes and imagining Sudhir next to me helps me drift off into a dreamless sleep.I have this beautiful CD of almost silent Songs headed by one of Asha's best--"kaisey kahoon main baat jiyaa kee Saanwariya" from an old Bollywood film named Gehra Daag.The rest just follow--each as good as the last.Another Song that gives me Goosebumps is Mubarak Begum's title Song from "Hamari Yaad Aayegi"---"Andherey chhaa rahey hongey" these strains haunt me as do those of another one sung by Sudha Malhotra and Mukesh for the film "Didi".It begins as "Tum mujhey bhool bhi jaao toh yeh Haq hai tumko" full of a very haunting and painful yearning for Love!!
While I love Richard Clayderman and Sudhir loved Floyd Kramer the one that we really were very fond of was Kenny G.Many of his beautifully played Melodies clutch at my heart--and make me weep for all that I had then and no longer do today!!Today the strains of his Saxophone transport me to a happier clime---when my days laughed and my nights sang!!These have been witness to the Love Sudhir and I shared and today are a testimony to my aching loneliness and solitude.