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Feeling introspective

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

My original goal was to lose 50 lbs by Christmas....and I did that by Thanksgiving! So I set a goal of 60 lbs by Christmas, and I don't think I'm going to quite make it. 6 days left and 5 lbs left toward my goal, I'm not willing to kill myself just to meet an unreasonable goal, because then I'll just gain all the weight back. Still, it's difficult to not feel like a failure when I don't meet a goal, so I'm trying to think positive.

Here are all the good ways my life has changed in the last 6 months:
-I have lost 55 lbs, 8 inches from my waist, and gone from a size 26 (which was too tight) to a size 20 (which is quickly becoming too big).
-My blood pressure was consistently high (140/100, 160/110 at its worst); by blood pressure has normalized (126/90, 100/80 when I last checked it a few days ago). My HDL is up and my LDL is down. My resting heart rate was 95-105, now it is 70-80.
-I have made exercise and healthy eating part of my life. I have re-ignited my love of cooking and my knife skills are much improved! Healthy eating proves to be inexpensive, too, since both my husband and I eat half as much as we used to. I have a new love of fresh, seasonal ingredients, and I love the challenge of making over my old recipes in a healthy way without sacrificing flavor.
-I have a closer relationship with my husband. We share 1 day off each week, and we devote it to doing something active with each other. We have gone hiking, fishing, and walking; whether it's around the zoo or park or just the mall or grocery, we make sure to get out every week and do SOMETHING. As a result of my healthy changes and his support, he has lost 25 lbs himself and given up soda.

Having said that, there are a few things I need to work on, so here are my goals for 2013:
-My triglycerides are sky high, and they've actually gotten HIGHER in past 6 months (from 215 to 285). I'm going to start a fish oil supplement at the advice of my doctor, so hopefully that will help while I work towards my goal weight. Also, my HDL needs to be higher.
-It's heard to work out in the winter! I just have no motivation. I still do it, but I don't have the enthusiasm I used to, so I don't enjoy it and don't do as much as I should. Upping exercise will also help my HDL and triglycerides.
-I haven't mentioned this here before, but I am a smoker, 10-20 cigarettes a day for the past 10 years. Obviously, quitting will greatly improve my health, but until now, I've been taking the "1 major change at a time" route. To be honest, I don't know if anything short of pregnancy will motivate me to quit right now. The plan has always been to quit when I have kids and not start up again, because I'm don't want to be a smoker parent...but I worry that I won't be able to do it. It's not something I like to talk about because I'm not proud of it, but I do need to address it in 2013.

I'm trying to decide how much weight I should lose before my husband and I try to have a family. I would love to reach my goal weight (December 2013 is my plan), but I don't know if I want to wait that long. I turn 29 in February, and I know that's not old, but I always thought I'd have my first kid before I turned 30. I really think it would be best to wait until 2014, but sometimes my biological clock thinks otherwise! My husband and I have talked about it and of course he is on board for whatever I would like to do.

So, those are my thoughts on my personal wellness, past and present. I don't know where I'm going from here, but I sure know where I've been and where I never want to be again. Thanks for reading.

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    That was a really positive blog. If you get down, just remember that your ORIGINAL goal was to lose 50 lbs by Christmas, and you have exceeded that by 5 lbs.
    Keep up the good work.
    1817 days ago
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