Tuesday, December 18, 2012
In my family we refer to the extra weight around the middle as a fupa (some say jelly/fat roll/muffin top) whatever you want to call it. It's a funny thing around us, a silly name for something we hate. Today, while playing with my sister's kids, she tells them to "touch her fupa and she'll freak out!" She is very athletic, fit build. I've always been sensitive about my weight, I have never been skinny, am incredibly modest, and HATE being touched by anyone! It really hurt my feelings the way she said it. I'm probably being overly sensitive, but it bothered me. Of course the kids were climbing all over me and touching me. Laughing and yelling "touch aunt ryan's fupa!" Is it silly that I'm 30 and got upset, like a 3rd grader being picked on at school? This really made me sad and embarrassed about who I've become/what I look like. Lord, please give me the strength and determination to finally make the change I've talked about for years.