Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Today, I am defeated.
Today, I am lost.
Today, I am terrified.
Today, I am sad.
Today, I realized that the path I started almost 4 months ago, a journey that has helped me to lose 31 pounds, is a path I have stopped walking. I have failed myself and I am defeated, today.
Today I am accountable for my sins. I have drank Monsters. I have drank chocolate milk. I have ate out. I have over ate. I have stopped exercising. I have stopped trying. Today I am accountable for my failure.
Today, I am defeated. Today, I realize the consequences of my choices. Today, I shall wallow in self pity and regret and doubt. Today, I will be lost.
But tomorrow is a different story. Tomorrow is a promise of what I can do and what I will do and what I want to do.
Tomorrow is a hoped for dream and a moment of grace. Tomorrow I can be someone else. Tomorrow I can make the right decisions. Tomorrow I can eat right, drink right, exercise, work hard, and be better. Tomorrow I can stop lollygagging on this path to a better me and I can take that first hard step all over again.
Today, I am defeated...but tomorrow is coming....and the promise of tomorrow is that today becomes a memory and the sadness of defeat can be laid to rest by the greatness of victory and the relief of grace....tomorrow is coming!