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Today, I am defeated....but tomorrow....

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Today, I am defeated.
Today, I am lost.
Today, I am terrified.
Today, I am sad.

Today, I realized that the path I started almost 4 months ago, a journey that has helped me to lose 31 pounds, is a path I have stopped walking. I have failed myself and I am defeated, today.

Today I am accountable for my sins. I have drank Monsters. I have drank chocolate milk. I have ate out. I have over ate. I have stopped exercising. I have stopped trying. Today I am accountable for my failure.

Today, I am defeated. Today, I realize the consequences of my choices. Today, I shall wallow in self pity and regret and doubt. Today, I will be lost.

But tomorrow is a different story. Tomorrow is a promise of what I can do and what I will do and what I want to do.

Tomorrow is a hoped for dream and a moment of grace. Tomorrow I can be someone else. Tomorrow I can make the right decisions. Tomorrow I can eat right, drink right, exercise, work hard, and be better. Tomorrow I can stop lollygagging on this path to a better me and I can take that first hard step all over again.

Today, I am defeated...but tomorrow is coming....and the promise of tomorrow is that today becomes a memory and the sadness of defeat can be laid to rest by the greatness of victory and the relief of grace....tomorrow is coming!

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
OHMEMEME 12/28/2012 1:10PM

    We all have days and times like this. But we can overcome. Pray, of course! And read, read, read, study, study, study, search, search, search....Keep praying and keep Sparking! A wonderful combination.

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CHUM48 12/18/2012 5:11PM

    Wow! Thank you for expressing my feelings! my thoughts! my heart! thank you. And just a final word, be kind to yourself!

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