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Going Down This Road Again

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Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Sometimes I guess you have to move backward a bit in order to truly move forward for good. In 2007-2008 I finally decided to do something about my weight. I had been overweight for most of life and at 24 I was being told my blood pressure was creeping up, I had high cholesterol, and I would almost certainly be diabetic before long. I joined a gym and started monitoring my food intake. I joined Sparkpeople and started learning about nutrition and fitness. By 2008 I had lost 80 pounds and I was pretty healthy and active. I got engaged and in preparing for me wedding I stepped up my exercise and started becoming preoccupied with exactly how many calories I ate. I lost another 25+ pounds, but I was pretty miserable. I worked out constantly, ate too little, and was generally unhappy. Soon after I got sick and ended up putting about 40 pounds back on. That was my wake up call. I realized that being healthy was much more important than what size pants I wore.

So, I started using my old Sparkpeople account as a reminder of how far I came the first time-around and how to re-lose in a healthy, sustainable way. No more 2 hour cardio session, but yes to running and weights. No more barring myself from any treats, only to binge and eat as many as I could before getting sick. Moderation is key.

Initially it was really hard to see myself regain weight. I would get depressed and think about how I had "let myself go". However, now that I'm healthy again I have a new perspective. Going through such a dark period, and yes re-gaining some weight, was necessary to fully appreciate my health and a reminder to always focus on wellness first. I'm almost in better shape now than I've ever been, and that is entirely due to my outlook.

I only have about 10 pounds left until I hit my "goal weight", and I'd love to get there by my 30th birthday in February. If I do, wonderful, but if not I'm still a better place than I was a year ago, and probably than I've ever been. And that is something I can celebrate.

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GLUNDY-DI 1/19/2013 9:17AM

  I need to read this bcs it seems I'm always starting over. TY for sharing & reminding me to focus on wellness first!

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TDEMAIO2 1/19/2013 8:46AM

    emoticon WOW you are amazing emoticon You are very smart -learning and growing in knowledge while on your journey- you found a lesson in your weight gain and then moved forward emoticon it has taken me 3 times to finally GET IT emoticon emoticon

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WATERDIAMONDS 1/19/2013 7:59AM

    Great blog about courage and persistence. Job well done.


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KDICKERSON96 1/19/2013 7:20AM

    Thanks for sharing your story. This is something many people struggle with. Congrats on your success!!!!!

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LEANMEAN2 1/19/2013 6:55AM

    Thanks for sharing. Most of us need to strengthen our "will power muscle".
Congrats to you.

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AMANDACOETZER 1/19/2013 5:55AM


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KIMLNYC 1/19/2013 3:16AM

  Sometimes you have to take a couple of steps back to move forward again.
You learned some things by making mistakes. That's a good thing.
You'll never deprive your body again of good nutrition.

You will reach your goal ... I just know it.
Bravo to you for your sensible approach to weight loss!


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AMANDEES76 1/18/2013 11:28PM

    YOU ROCK!!!! Congratulation on everything that you have achieved. Thanks for the motivation.

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WHITEANGEL4 1/18/2013 11:18PM

    Congratulations on decision to feel good about good about yourself.

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SHANNONY84 1/18/2013 11:14PM

    You have a great attitude... Let it motivate and lead you toward your goal. Good luck!

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TREYONE 1/18/2013 10:27PM

  I have also had the experience of having my weight issues take second place to health concerns. I suffered in silence the battle with anorexia - it took a long time to gain a healthier perspective in regards to my body image. Years later, I found myself battling another health issue, life threatening, and I had to do battle again with my greatest demon- the scale. It became necessary to weigh in daily to make sure I was maintaining a healthy weight through balanced nutrition. One of the greatest gifts I received as a result of my illness was that numbers (weight, sizes) do not bring true happiness. That comes from your continued good health!!!

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HETZ51 1/18/2013 10:15PM

  Eat healthy!! Way to move toward a healthy life.

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-PAULA 1/18/2013 10:10PM


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CHOCOHIPPO 1/18/2013 10:03PM

    You have a wonderful attitude. Congratulations on your sensible approach, your insight and your accomplishment!

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DARYLBN 1/18/2013 9:27PM

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FITFAB13 1/18/2013 9:21PM

    You do have a wonderfully, positive outlook and that's what will continue to get you through. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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PORTIAWILLIS 1/18/2013 8:58PM

    It's great you learned this lesson early in life. I on the other hand have just figured it out. I'm 58 and a slow learner. HaHa

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SHEFTEKAREN 1/18/2013 8:33PM

  Thank you for sharing your story. You are an inspiration to me. I have failed many times to lose weight. I really want to lose weight but keep the main goal, which is Staying Healthy and having more energy. Exactly what you stated in your story.

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MICHELLEZ64 1/18/2013 7:44PM

  Way to go! Health and happiness over everything!

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JAYNEDOH1 1/18/2013 6:53PM

  You're doing great, Jenay!! Here's to your happiness! emoticon

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COPEMA 1/18/2013 6:26PM

    Great job in getting your health back and in realizing that that is the important part of this journey. It is the slow and steady who win the race!


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SPARKBJOK 1/18/2013 6:01PM

    WOW! Keep up the good work! And you're such a motivator for the rest of us.

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SYLSITT 1/18/2013 5:56PM

    I'm so thankful for your story. I have done almost the exact same thing and here I am again. But, like you, I want this wellness journey to be about changing habits forever, not just for awhile. I hope to develop those healthy habits so I can be able to spend my life enjoying my family! I'm rooting for you - your gain is my gain and your loss is my loss!! emoticon

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LYNMEINDERS 1/18/2013 5:54PM

    Woohoo...go you.....
It is crazy that we do have to sometimes go backwards in order to go forward again....
Not at all far from your goal....

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CARPANDKOI 1/18/2013 5:25PM

  Super Job. May God's blessings sustain you in your newly developing lifestyle - healthy!

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IDAHOFLOWER 1/18/2013 4:28PM

    It's a Journey and we can inspire one another. emoticon

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NANADEE44 1/18/2013 4:03PM

    Thanks so much for sharing your story. You are truly an inspiration for so many who tend to look only at the scale and not at the health side of the issues we all have with weight. I think I am what some might call a yoyo dieter,. Much older than you, but my life seemed to consist of so many peaks and valleys as far as my weight was concerned. I never gave a thought to the health issues, just that number on the scale.
I'm still watching the number, but I have also become excited about watching the graphs and reports that Spark provides for me every day. It makes me realize what BALANCE truly is. Thanks again for sharing.

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ELEGANT94 1/18/2013 3:53PM

    You're pretty amazing, you know that. emoticon

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MARELLAJ 1/18/2013 3:39PM

    Reading your blog was encouraging to me because I have gained back almost all of the 27 pounds that I lost while never reaching goal weight. It's good to know someone else has been there. You inspire me to work at succeeding again!

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JUDSTERF 1/18/2013 3:17PM

    emoticon Keep up the good work!! What an inspiration to never give up!!


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NOAHSMOMMA11 1/18/2013 3:14PM

    Great work!!! emoticon

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WEGENERCS 1/18/2013 2:57PM

    Congratulations for self-evaluating what you were, are, and will do. Sometimes we all go to some pretty dark places in our souls; the secret is knowing when it happens and loving one's self enough to crawl back out and start again--and again--and, if needed, again. You've given me some things to think about.

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BANDOMOM1 1/18/2013 2:55PM

  Wow. way to go!!!! emoticon

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DEASTEPHENS2 1/18/2013 2:52PM

  Thanks for sharing, I wish you the best

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WE_PA_FIT 1/18/2013 2:47PM

    i can toatally relate to this....
not only healthy body but also mindset! emoticon emoticon

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LIFECHANGER33 1/18/2013 2:46PM

    Liked hearing your story mines similar in that I lost a lot of weight and then gained 40 back and now I'm not worrying about the pounds as much. Good to hear someone else similar.

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TOTALGYM2264 1/18/2013 2:36PM

    Thank you for sharing this. I struggle a lot this same way with overdoing exercise and cutting out bad foods that I end up bouncing back. Such and inspiration.

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RODYANNE 1/18/2013 2:28PM

  Thank you for sharing your experience with us. I can identify with you on the regaining of the weight. I went to the doctor today and I am back up in the weight department. I made a decision to begin again. I chose only healthy items for dinner today and no sweets or bread.

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REDVELVET21 1/18/2013 2:25PM

    Thank you......

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TRACIE-C 1/18/2013 2:11PM

    EXCELLENT!!! such words of wisdom! being healthy is so awesome, it's the best feeling in the world!

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SHIRLEYB62 1/18/2013 2:09PM

    Thanks for reminding us that it is not how thin you are but haow helathly you are. !!! emoticon

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LNICHOLAS21 1/18/2013 2:08PM

    From your lips to our ears. Thanks for sharing your inspiring story

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RAE1102 1/18/2013 1:36PM

  Congrats on a great outlook on your health and fitness habits!

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IS1GAR 1/18/2013 1:00PM

    Being healthy is so much more important and is great you have figure this out at early age. Congratulations!!
You will reach your goal! emoticon

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MONWIDE 1/18/2013 12:36PM

  good job pls.continue to do the best u can
u made my day iwill pass this on .god bless emoticon

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MPARVAZE1 1/18/2013 12:15PM

    emoticon Thanks for sharing....

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DIHEALTHYHAPPY 1/18/2013 12:08PM

    Awesome! Well said!

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