Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Im really starting to struggle mentally on this journey. I keep getting up going the gym and swimming most days, Weight is changing on the scale but im feeling more self concous than ever.
I knew i was huge before weighing in at 24stone and accepted that fact and never ever looked at myself, even though i was not happy.
Now ive lost 78lbs in last 16weeks which is great but i feel my mood is worse than ever. I am so much more body concous and feel fatter than ever today.
Having a really bad day, even tried to blog earlier to convince myself i feel better and look better. Since then ive felt even worse..
Not sure whats going on but i just hope my mind set changes soon aswell as my body..
I can not put anymore than my 1.5hours swimming in most morning and 3 - 3.5hrs in the eveing every day i dont have my daughter..
O well. fingers crossed something clicks and i can keep on track and motivated.