Tuesday, December 18, 2012
I wont mention how awful last week was for me and spark. I had an out of town friend come in. We ate and drank like college kids. I wont lament the time spent, its just time to get back to the grind this week.
The slip up from last night was that I ate 2 sourdough pretzels. I don't know how many calories they had in them. I had about 300 left to give for my daily calorie intake, but I didnt need them and I only at them b/c they were next to me by my computer. Begging me to be consumed. The convo went something like this:
Pretzel: Hey man. Whats up? How was your day? did you eat today?
Me: Day was ok, went to gym, was on for my calorie thus far. I did eat, why do you ask
Pretzel: Well I haven't seen you in a while I was thinking we could meet up. Nothing special, just "a little bit"
Me: a little meeting doesn't sound too bad. I mean Its not really cheating if im not emotionally involved (RIIIIIIIIIGHT)
Pretzel: my thoughts exactly bud. I got my two friends, lets meet up....
and I did.
I gave into temptation b/c it was readily available, and I started destructive thinking that it was only a pretzel, it would matter much, what was 150 calories in the long run anyway? I should have shut off that destructive thinking right away. 150 calories IS a big deal. regardless of whether or not I ate the pretzel i was still going to be with the same level of hunger...it was a waste and I shoulda recognized it.
Luckily I realized what I was doing and tossed one back into the bag, but the damage was done. Nothing to do for it now but stick extra hard to my diet today. Maybe hit another 5 minutes of cardio as "punishment" who knows. Good Hunting