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Off My Rocker and in the Grave.

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

And here I thought nothing else could go so horribly wrong in my life. After a 13 hour stand off in the attic of my fathers house my little and only brother killed himself. It's been a few days and it seems I have internalized my emotions, I cannot sleep for more than a couple hours before he makes his way into my dreams. I cannot eat or drink because it hurts too much to do so. I'm holding up my family as best I can, Pray my legs hold us until after his funeral.
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BONNIEBONNEAU 12/25/2012 8:32AM

    i am very sorry to hear of your loss.
i wish there was a way for SP to give u a hug , and a shoulder to cry on, so please accept our words - as the next best thing.

i use to be on the debate team , and learned, a sad fact- that holiday seasons ,are the time, when people kill themselves

i encourage u to write more blogs- it may help ..
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BEACHBOD1DAY 12/23/2012 9:09PM

    I am so terribly sorry to hear of your family's loss. Being the holiday season must make it even harder for all of you to cope with. You are all in my thoughts this evening.

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HDHAWK 12/20/2012 8:42AM

    I'm so sorry you have lost your brother in this terrible way. I'm glad to see you are going to seek counseling. emoticon

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GOPINTOS 12/20/2012 7:26AM

    I am so sorry to read of your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers. emoticon

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IMMYSTICMARGO 12/18/2012 9:05PM

    Thank you all for your support and advice. I plan on starting some sessions with the victims advocacy, Apparently in my city they see the family members of a suicide as victims. emoticon

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1STATEOFDENIAL 12/18/2012 5:03PM

    My condolences. Please consider asking for help from a therapist or counselor. You've suffered a tragic event and you alone cannot hold up your entire family. No person can be expected to do so. Getting help in the first few days is very important; waiting too long can cause PTSD to settle in and makes everything more difficult. You might even try to set up family counseling so that your entire family has a safe place to grieve and have their pain validated and addressed. Even if it is only one or two sessions it will do everyone good.

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BATCHICK 12/18/2012 11:26AM

    Take care of yourself! You have suffered a profound loss. MY heart goes out to you! emoticon

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BETHYSMAMA 12/18/2012 10:18AM

    So sorry to hear of your loss.

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EBONYSOL 12/18/2012 5:54AM

    You are traumatized and in shock. Believe it or not, those feelings, or lack thereof, are a protective defense for the moment. I encourage you to get counselling as soon as possible. Check with your local hospice or doctor or mental health or wherever. Suicide leaves the survivors with many unanswered questions and has long term effects on families. I know as we have had suicides in our family - an uncle and a cousin. I am bipolar and have been on the edge more than once. My thought patterns were pretty screwed up; I sought help only because I remembered the consequences to the family.
Please be gentle with yourself and take care of you. You are in my thoughts.



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JULIA_211 12/18/2012 5:34AM

    emoticon emoticon I am so very sorry for your loss.

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