Monday, December 17, 2012
So this week I've committed to tracking what I actually eat, not what I wish I were eating. I know I'm still lying to myself a bit, but honestly? I had no idea it had gotten this out of hand. I said to myself, if I want to lose weight, and have this be a time that sticks, a time for me to say that I am more important than others in my life, that I need to look inwards in order to look outwards, that I need to be a bit selfish, then I need to look hard at what I am doing. And it is not what I'd like to be doing. It is the holidays, so I don't expect to lose, but I do expect to be honest with myself about what I want, what I need and what I can do.