I was feeling pretty proud of myself for losing 20 pounds and I still do. My long term goal was to lose 30 pounds. I still intend to meet that goal. Nine more pounds to go! But today I'm facing the fact that losing 30 isn't enough. I went onto the government health Centers for Disease Control webpage and used their BMI calculator to see what I should actually weigh.
According to this calculator (and others I consulted) I need to lose, not 9 more but 25 more pounds to be in the normal weight range for my height. This means that when I started this journey with Spark People I was 45 pounds overweight - Obese! Ouch - man have I ever been in denial about my situation! Here are the hard facts:
My starting weight: 224 (BMI - 30.8, Category: Obese)
My current weight: 203 (BMI - 27.9, Category: Overweight) - well that's progress I guess...
My target weight: 194 (BMI - 26.7, Category: Overweight) - Drat!
10 lb. lower target: 184 (BMI - 25.3, Category: Overweight) - Good Grief!
15 lb. lower target: 179 (BMI - 24.6 Category: Normal) - Whew!
I know that when I set my original goal I hardly dared to believe that I could achieve even that. It felt like wild reckless dreaming to think that I would ever weight under 200. I proably knew then that losing 30 pounds was not really enough but I felt so depressed and discouraged about my weight I couldn't muster up the courage to hope for more. I was stressed out about how serious this was for my health - being part of a family with heart attack and stroke risk. But 45 pounds overweight - I was in denial about how overweight I was!
The cool thing is that I have lost 20 pounds - and I expect to meet my original goal of 194 fairly soon, by mid or late February. I am really looking forward to what Grateful-dad calls ONEderland, being in the "land" of weighing less than 200. I'll be there soon. With this new confidence and progress, I can now envision going on to a new goal of 179 (better yet 175). Man, does that sound crazy! Even as I dare to envision it, old doubts creep up within me. But I am on a new path.
So, I've lost 20 in a little less than three months, so I could lose 20 more by my birthday in April. That would be a very nice present for myself - to be at 184 on my birthday! Then moving on I could be looking good in a swim suit in the summer of 2013 at 179 or even 175
Well, I now see that the long-term goal is bigger than what I originally dared to believe possible - and I need to dig in here for the long-haul. But I give thanks to God and to the Spark People community and to my wife and family for encouraging me and giving me the tools, motivation, courage, and faith to do this!