Monday, December 17, 2012
Busy day today. Took the dog for a long walk this morning before my company came over. Got a bunch of cleaning done. My dad picked the dog up for dogsitting duty around 1pm. Then I went and got blood work done, before taking a long walk without the dog. At 3:30pm my eldest niece, Tigan, picked me up for a medical appointment. Then we went to 6 stores Christmas shopping. After we finished all our shopping we carried all the packages up to my apartment, then walked up to a new restaurant I wanted to try. Dinner was great. I got the gnocchi with marinara sauce and italian sausage, with a salad starter. Usually when I eat out I feel obliged to finish my meal since I am paying so much for it, but tonight I paid attention to how full I was feeling and stopped when I reached that point despite still having food left on my plate. I guess that counts as a NSV. Then after dinner I took the dog for a walk, before finally heading home for the night.
Tomorrow looks like it might be another busy day, with my middle niece and her friends walking with me in the morning, the gym with Tigan in the afternoon, and all my normal dog walking on top of that. I am a little nervous about going to the gym, as that was raising my anxiety level to go the gym. But I like going to the gym, so I want to try going again. Hopefully going with my niece will distract me enough that my anxiety stays pretty level. My doctor told me that "the best treatment for anxiety is anxiety itself." I didn't get it at first. He said it is like lifting weights... the heavier the weight the stronger you get. So, feeling anxiety means I have to learn to cope with anxiety. My "anxiety muscles" will get stronger the longer I successfully cope with the anxiety. I am not certain I buy that theory, but what the heck... I am coping, it is just uncomfortable not debilitating most of the time.