Monday, December 17, 2012
It all looks so yummy! I wouldn't want to hurt feelings by not eating something they worked so hard to make! Yep... those are statements I hear myself say in my head!
I worked so hard to lose that weight and now I am playing with fire at the 200 pound mark again. I eat because I feel bad I have gained weight back. I eat because I just can't NOT eat. :( I have come to the realization that I am powerless over that four letter word.. F-O-O-D. What do you do if your powerless? Turn to a 12 step program of course.
I have found Over-eaters anonymous. It is like AA for people who over-eat. My Medical Doctor diagnosed me with an eating disorder and this is like the last straw. I have to get my life under control.
I have been to two meetings. As much as I hate to put a label on myself I think I am one of them. So, I am trying to deal with this HEAD ON. Please pray for me. I WILL NEED IT!