Not giving up
Monday, December 17, 2012
I need to find a comfort for the rough times that isn't food. When I'm frustrated with my marriage I turn to food and to a lesser extent, alcohol. The alcohol is probably worse for me because I want sugary drinks. I made Piņa coladas this weekend. Crazy amount of sugar and fat from the coconut cream + alcohol = all turns to fat and messes up my metabolism. I ate crazy stuff at the pot luck at lunch on Friday, pizza for dinner, McDonald's McGriddle for Saturday lunch, more pizza for dinner and went out for a calamari po-boy and sweet potato fries for dinner on Sunday. The only vaguely healthy meal was Sunday breakfast of eggs, mushrooms and yellow pepper, but I spoiled that with ketchup. Needless to say I gained back the 2 lbs I worked so hard to loose last week.
There's a big Christmas party this weekend and I really wanted to be 180 or less for it. Now I have 4lbs to loose instead of 2lbs and I don't think it's going to happen. Booo!
So I gave in and paid for a 3 month subscription to Spark Coach. So far the videos are falling a little flat. What is good is that it gives me something to do each morning that's a reminder of my goals. I'm hoping it will get better once I'm farther in. My challenge today is to make a collage. I have no idea where to start. I think I'm going to do it in Photoshop though. It's much easier for me to get pictures from the web than to find magazines and glues.
I can't believe how close to Christmas it is. I have to give my presentation on Friday and it's stressing me out. I also haven't sent out my Christmas cards or done any shopping. I had to work yesterday so I didn't even have a proper weekend. My house is upside down and I didn't even get the laundry done!
I'm going to try to make a schedule and see if I can get some off the stress of my plate.