Monday, December 17, 2012
For everyone that knows me, knows that I'm NOT big on blogging but I just wanted to say to everyone out there. You are NOT ALONE!! No matter how you feel or how bad it gets someone is there, someone LOVES YOU!!
I have found this season is reminding us of HOW Grateful we should be for all we have & for everyone we have. I am truly THANKFUL but I'm finding it SO HARD to smile these days. I know some people think, WHY?? If you are so thankful how can you NOT SMILE? My heart is breaking for so many others out there & no matter how happy I am it is so hard when you are heart broken! I look at my family and cry; not out of sadness but out of love. We have had some issues around here that I never would wish on anyone. I hurt for so many others, my daughter watching as she finds out about a classmate SHOT down. People say, "he was in the wrong place at the wrong time". Then Friday
I don't like having to explain to my kids. What happened to kids dealing with teen problems like 'who's my boyfriend this week' or 'what am I going to wear?' I can't stop crying & I don't want to go back to where I was last year. I tend to shut down but like my last blog said, "I refuse!" I refuse to go back, I refuse to stop living, I refuse to put my kids in a bubble (no matter HOW BAD I WOULD LIKE TO). We will continue to live! We are waiting for that glorious day when the LORD comes back for us but until then I will find my smile. I will let HIS LIGHT shine through me NO MATTER How hard it is.
One FOOT in front of the other. I WILL DO THIS!