Monday, December 17, 2012
The weekend was pretty much what I expected. Fun with Mom, coupled with too many treats!
The only time I managed to get on the treadmill (and I claim full responsibility for not doing it other times) was Sunday morning. I fell 10 minutes short of my weekly minimum goal and there is no excuse for it as I could have easily fit some in at several points on Saturday.
We watched Holiday movies, made cookies, made a wreath for my front door, did a little shopping, wrapped some gifts, and went to go see the Hobbit.
I will spare you the gory food details. I will freely admit that is was excessive. Much of it I do not feel bad about because it was planned.
The part I do feel the need to fess up too was a bit of a binge last night involving the cookies and a huge bag of ruffle potato chips. Why do I feel worse about this that the planned indulgences of the rest weekend? Because I didn't even enjoy it. I went into the mindlessly shoveling food into my mouth without really tasting and enjoying it mode. I made myself queasy. While we were decorating the cookies I just kept eating them and when they broke out the chips during a post-dinner movie, I too just kept mindlessly and rapidly reaching into the bag. I recognized it for what it was. I just gave up and joined in because I was tired of seeing my sister and mother eating and not seeming to care. I felt left out. Silly really because, again I didnít enjoy those treats. The part that really sucks is that I had made a well balanced and healthy dinner that we had all really enjoyed. The first all weekend as we dined out the rest of the time.
Now it is time to regroup and move on.
This morning I am only up 0.2 lbs from my Friday weigh in.
The next two weeks continue to be full of Hazards but I am feeling more confident of my ability to control the damage.
1. Keep trying to fit in exercise even with the crazy busy schedule!
2. Try to enjoy the treats as I have but not overdo it.
I don't want the guilt and worry of re-gain to ruin my Christmas. So I am trying to relax without overly dropping my guard. I think I can strike that balance between mindfulness and unhealthy fear/obsession.
Looking forward to a walk tonight!