Monday, April 16, 2007
I'm going to have to somehow learn how to motivate myself. External motivators have their place, I know, but if I keep slacking off and getting back in gear so often, it's because I have absolutely no drive within myself. Knowing that is easy, finding a way to do this thing and keep it up is near impossible! SP is giving me a million external motivators, I've yet to take one to heart and make it my own, mostly because these motivators seem so temporary to me, so not something I would come up with myself. I'm becoming reliant on the system and that's not the point! I should be able to not log on and still live the life. I'm not 2, after all. I should not have to baby step at this point...I should already be racing towards my goals.